LIVING MY BLESSED LIFE! ^_^

QUOTES I LOVE! GENDER POLICING by SON OF BALDWIN

2011-07-10T20:44:00.000-04:00

Heterosexuals gender police because they want you to

be just like them.

Homosexuals gender police to prove to heterosexuals

that they can be just like them.

AMEN! AMEN! AMEN!

MARIAH CAREY E=MC2

2011-06-21T16:39:00.001-04:00

I don't know why but this album kicked up in my spirit and I just had to play it!

I actually didn't know how much I loved this album.

M.C. had some really good hits on this album!

Oh the joy this album is bringing to me as I type this.

My Favorites:

Cruise Control

Side Effects

I'm That Chick

Migrate

Touch My Body

I Wish You Well

Thanx 4 Nothin

I Stay In Love

O.O.C.

SO IS YOUR EGO BRUISED OR WHAT?! ALL BECAUSE I'M ASSERTIVE LIKE YOU!

2011-06-21T11:59:00.004-04:00

Ok, I've dated a few guys were they could not quite understand or accept me. (read: handle or put up with lol)

All because cute, [meek, and mild - perceived crap about me]

(SARCASM) little TJ is ASSERTIVE!

Me and him dated/psuedo relationship for an entire year between 08-09 and it ended quite ugly because he thought I was trying to out him! Which I totally was not. That's not my place at all. Anyway, that's a whole 'nother post.

Anyway, he hit me up months ago wanting to re-connect.

I've forgiven him, me and moved on.

I see no problem with extending friendship to him.

Clearly, he wants more but he hasn't grown enough (read: self-awareness of himself) for me to even think about giving him that chance again.

So a few days ago we were having a conversation about laws, police officers, the system, social justice.

And basically my point was that police offices has ruined their relationship with the ppl! There is a definite amount of mistrust in black communities with police officers. In my opinion, they protect the laws and not the people. Most police officers have no humility, integrity, nor compassion when doing their job. But we do have ALOT of egotistical assholes, who think they can walk on water, and just abuse their power and authority.

Well, he did not agree with my stance of course. I was not talking about him! This was just my general position. His words, were 'fuck social justice and those ppl they aren't the ones putting their lives on the line everyday'.

Granted, I agree to SOME extent and respect those officers but that is not reality.

Do not agree on fuck social justice and ppl who are trying to bring justice to everyone.

Honestly, I don't think that's his honest opinion! I do believe he just said that because my statement made him mad but hey that could be true given his history.

Since that debate he has not called or texted me...and usually he texts me everyday.

I just find that hilarious!

This is his typical fashion every time we have different views on the world around us.

For some reason, he can not take the fact that I confidently voice my opinions, make no apologies about it, and back them up.

Times when we were together and we disagreed on something.

He had the NERVE to say that "I am the man! So I am right!"

And he would always use his age as leverage. [Older age doesn't always equate to wisdom. read: I don't give 2 fucks if your 10yrs older than me. I still think your logic is greatly FLAWED!]

LMAO! Like, what the hell is that?!

*looks down*

I have a dick between my legs, as well pimp!

And no matter, if I'm receiving or giving I will be respected!

For some of yall, that may have made your dick hard. "Ooh, my man putting me in my place"

For me, that's a big HELL NO!

We aren't heteros! [And if we were it STILL would NOT be right!]

Save the sexist misogynistic views for those who love em. (Not knocking same-sex couples who like hetero-normative relationships, but that right there is just too much for muah!)

It's funny because all the time he would tell me that my mouth is going to make men dislike me!

That I need to control my mouth!

I suppose being straightforward and calling out his BS in his behavior and attitude regarding our relationship didn't help either, huh? LOL

I am by no means a Tamar Braxton, from Braxton Family Values.

Just a fabulous guy who stands up and firm in my beliefs, views, and values.

And quite accepting of others' views, beliefs, and values! Shit, I am a liberal to certain extents!

There was another guy I dated sometime after him that didn't like my assertiveness either.

He would often call me an overachieving, stuck up bitch! (Just last week [not literal], I was a forward thinker, strong, and sexy and you just gotta have me on your team.)

One of my exs (we are just friends now) put it perfectly.

He said, "They don't know TJ Harris. You ain't like them other 'bottoms' out there. You're not gonna sit there and laugh and giggle and agree with everything they say and you will let it be known! Shit, I like that you do that. You a man too and not a doll. If those dudes you talking to can't handle that then you need to cut 'em loose."

And that's exactly what I'm doing from here to infinity!

I do not have time for that mess! If you want to be with ME! I need to have the freedom to be just that!

TJ!

So if I can't freely voice my opinion just as you can "Mr.MasculineTopMan" (sarcasm) then please keep it moving!

So what was up with him y'all?

Please, leave your thoughts!

MY THOUGHTS: BEYONCE'S 4 BALLADS

2011-06-16T23:30:00.001-04:00

After give this album another listen those damn ballads MOVED me!

Like, I really like these bitches!

I find myself going back and hitting repeat.

True Verdict: Beyonce' has created a great body of artistic work all around.

Literally, everything that I thought was weak is not anymore and the album makes sense now.

MY THOUGHTS: NAIL PAINTING

2011-06-16T23:24:00.000-04:00

Now, I know some gays my like or even love this.

But tonight I painted my sister nails since she couldn't finish.

And.

This is the most tedious thing.

Shit. It's hard work. Getting those lines all straight and smooth.

But this damn near irritated me. LOL

My name is TJ and

I am one less gay that

DO.NOT.LIKE.

painting nails!

....Facials (not the X-Rated version y'all) now those are the bees knees ^_^

NFL PLAYER THOUGHTS ON GAY MARRIAGE

2011-06-16T22:23:00.000-04:00

I saw this post over at NecoleBitchie.com (one of my fav blogs) - LINK

Reading this gave me a headache.

Anyway, this comment for the comments section is exactly what I feel about his comments.

"I disagree. Marriages are disrespected everyday by men and women. There is no longer “sanctity” in Marriage. People step out and have affairs, people divorce and you have to explain that to your kids so… People also get married in Vegas just for “fun” —some may say this is completely different than Gay Marriage but where’s the sanctity in that?

He said:

Marriage is one of those things that are the backbone of society. If you redefine it, it changes the way we educate our children, it changes the perception of what is good, what is right, and what is just.

Yes, you can educate your children that all people are not the same. Certain things you may not like but as a society we will not pass judgment on them. You can teach your kids to be more open-mined and to accept all types of people for who they are.

Gay marriage does not send a message that you don’t need a mother or father. Gay marriage sends a message that though we are not a “conventional couple” they still love the same way a man and woman does.

He is right when he says two men won’t be able to show a girl how to be a woman BUT how do single fathers teach their daughters how to be women? They may turn to a relative or friend to help them out. A gay couple can do the same. I often think if people are worried that if a gay couple raises a child will that child become gay.. I’m not sure of that answer and I think that would have to be observed in a large pool of gay couples raising kids but that’s not the issue here. We’re talking about Marriage.

I just think that all people should have the same rights. All people should be able to express their love for each other whether it’s a man & woman, man & man, or woman & woman. He made some interesting points and I respect that. I’m glad he didn’t JUST come with “Well the Bible” like so many people do. I use to jump down people’s throats for saying Gay marriage is wrong. I’ve learned to listen to both sides and try to understand where ppl are coming from…But I stand firm on my thoughts and I believe there’s nothing wrong with it." - Commenter, Amana Ethopia

MY THOUGHTS: MARSHA AMBROSIUS - LATE NIGHTS & EARLY MORNINGS

2011-06-14T20:02:00.000-04:00

Ms. Marsha Ambrosius is back at it once again!

The song is HOT!

But the video leaves you with a great message!

Always practice safe sex!

For those who haven't seen her phenomenal video for "Far Away"

Please check it out below

She's one of the 1st if not the 1st artist to talk about black gay love and being open

And how not being accepted by one's community affects an individual.

MY THOUGHTS: ADELE

2011-06-14T02:32:00.001-04:00

Can you say? Overexposed!

HYPED!

Yeah, her somber melancholy music do NOT tickle my spirit!

And quite frankly, I am nauseated and fatigued that everyone thinks I'm crazy

because I do not get into this lady!

Besides her singles - Hometown Glory & Chasing Pavements

Geesh!

She aint no Lauryn Hill, Amy Winehouse, or Mary J.Blige!

Honestly, I kinda find her voice annoying.

MY THOUGHTS: IDIOT TRACY MORGAN HOMOPHOBIC RANT!

2011-06-14T02:23:00.000-04:00

I'm sure everyone has heard about this idiot's homophobic rant.

No, excuse me comedic jokes!

Jokes? Hate-filled messages that MANY WILL consume and AGREE with!

Like, REALLY?!

I don't give a damn about the "it's just a joke" argument!

Everybody know good and damn well he feels that way deep down.

His true thoughts seeped from his unconscious onto to the mic into the ears of the public.

UGH!

But NOW! He's sorry and all for the gay ppl!

I am sick and tired of this "Ooops! I said something wrong" let me now become an ally for the rainbow kids.

He needs COUNSELING!

True.Honest.REAL. COUNSELING!

Not that I'm sorry let me go talk to a therapist for 3 weeks mess.

Point.Blank.Period!

MY THOUGHTS: THE SISSY BOY EXPERIMENT

2011-06-14T02:04:00.004-04:00

In 1970, a five-year-old boy named Kirk Murphy was subjected to an ex-gay experiment. Under the care of Dr Ivor Lovaas and George Rekers, then a doctoral student, of UCLA, he underwent therapy to eliminate supposed effeminate behaviors. In 1974, Lovaas and Rekers jointly published a paper about the boy they renamed "Kraig," heralding his treatment for "childhood cross-gender problems" a success and claiming he had been transformed from a gender-confused homosexual-in-waiting to a healthy, heterosexual young man. On the back of this study, Rekers built a career as an anti-gay activist and a supposed expert in childhood sexual development. He co-founded the Family Research Council and championed reparative therapy to turn gay men straight. In 2003, Kirk, aged 38 years old and gay, committed suicide.

I find this to be totally repulsive! This is vile and evil! Instead of accepting, loving, nurturing, supporting, and building a son who was untainted to begin with his parents decided that this conversion therapy was the best thing for him! Parents, children, uncles, aunts, brothers, sisters, grandmothers, and grandparents you will create a zombie if you do not stop the bullshit and love and guide your children AS IS! They are who they are! We all are who we are! Simply let them be! Everyone is not born straight! Either you agree with who they are everyone deserve's their God given right to be free to express their NATURAL AUTHENTIC SELVES! Not surprised that Dr. Rekers paid for a Rent boy to please him on his trip overseas! Ugh!

The video below is what a family and a community looks like that supports and uplifts and protect and guide to the best of their ability individuals as they are. Although, Dyson will go through teasing and bullying because of his familie's bravery and courage he will have the self-love and self-esteem to get through it! Why?! Because his family is creating a loving supporting nurturing environment for him. He will grow up confident and self-assured as his family will always have his back and it is CONCRETE!

Dyson's father, Dean Kilodavis, says, "I'm fine with it. I just want him to be happy and healthy." Dean continues, "In the end, when he's grown up, I want him to be able to say that no matter what he chooses, my parents were supportive of me." Dean says Dyson knows he has a sanctuary at home.

MY THOUGHTS: BEYONCE'S 4!

2011-06-10T00:03:00.002-04:00

My favorite Beyonce' is back! The R&B Funky Soul Diva!

Here she is always home and at her BEST!

I am so glad that the Sasha Fierce era is over although it did solidify her Icon status!

This was the first album by her that I could not listen to without falling asleep! Not joking! I tried like 6 times y'all!

I just felt alot of the songs were forced and contrived to appeal to a larger market/audience which she did! But I did love "Single Ladies", "Halo", "Scared of Lonely", "If I Were A Boy", "Sweet Dreams" (Not the album version but the leaked version! I hated her shouting "turn on the lights" in the background! Like, UGH!), and "Ego".

6 out of 16 songs...needless to say this also was the first Beyonce' album where I did not like all the songs!

Anyway, I'm not her to talk about Sasha Fierce but 4 baby!

Now along with the rest of y'all I was waiting like a sweaty dog jumping for bacon strips. As soon as I heard that she was going to incorporate live instruments on this album I was like, "Glory be to God!"

Pros:

Our girl did NOT go the electronic/dance/house route! So glad because that is clearly overexposed right now!
Her INTENT was to make an album were you feel the emotions of the song! Which in some cases she really did that!

"1+1" a tender heartfelt ballad that will practically bring you to tears! She sings this song with so much passion, power, and brasiness...which is showcased through out the album!
"Best Thing I Never Had"...may not move at first listen but hunni just put that thing on repeat and you will be feeling and singing along to "Irreplaceble Part 2". You feel her genuine heartbreak and bruised pride for giving some dumb ass fool the benefit of the doubt! That moose showed his ugly ass when he got too comfortable with Bey. And unlike many she saw the early red flags and threw up the deuces to the loser. Yeah, we all can relate to this song!
"Party" Produced by Kanye West featuring Andre 3000. On the first listen I feel in love with this feel-good mid-tempo delight! Cool! Laid-back! Definitely inspired by the 80s! I want this to be a single but you know radio is so "samey" and may not be welcoming to this refreshing sound.
"Rather Die Young" melo-dramatic would be an understatement. She would "rather die young than live without you" (Jay-Z, LOL!) I like the song...it's a nice slow jam.
"Love On Top" nothing but pure 80s! Diana Ross and Whitney Houston! And I love it! UGH! This song is so sweet and just ughhhhhhh feel-good.
"Countdown" hmmm BLAH! I've heard WAY better dance tracks from her! This was underwhelming.
"End of Time" nice dance track! Influence by tribal sounds! This song kinda reminds me of Micheal Jackson's "Remember the Time" just not of the magnificence his song was on of course.
"I Was Here" Diane Warren gushed and gushed about this ballad she wrote for Beyonce but this emotional song is underwhelming! It never goes anywhere! She should have saved this slow ballad for the beginning with the other ballads. Although, I love the intent and message behind it and how it inspires me to leave a mark on this world. Is Beyonce' saying goodbye to us in this song?
"Run The World (Girls)" when I first heard the song I hated it honestly! Then I heard it in the club and the song goes HARD! THEN I saw the video and PASSED THE FUCK OUT! Love it even if I have to envision myself mimicking those crazy wonderful dance moves in the club!

I love the place Beyonce is in right now! She's in love and experimenting with her sound. I do like it!

Cons:

Damn near every ballad on this album! They just don't move me like that besides "1+1". Hopefully, more listens will change that.
The lyrics are sub-par and marginal for Beyonce's status in this industry! I was quite disappointed by them.
The album does sound quite random. I am not sure if that is caused by the selection of songs themselves or the order of the songs on the album. Which overall makes the album sound obviously inconsistent and incoherent.

Apart of me do feel that Columbia needs to replace some of the songs with better songs!
Hell, Beyonce' recorded 78 damn songs for this album! I'm sure the powers that be can re-work and re-tweak this.
So maybe the leak will help Beyonce'! A blessing in disguise, if you will.
If fans do not connect with this album it's because they do not ride with the R&B side of her, "Dangerously In Love"!
Every artist has an underrated "flop" album in their catalogue this may be it for Beyonce. But I DO NOT want it to be! The direction and intent I LOVE! It just needs to be executed way more efficiently.
Rolling Stone stated, "it's very much the sort of album a pop star makes when she doesn't feel like she has anything to prove." And this could very well be the case here.

MY THOUGHTS: VH1'S SINGLE LADIES

2011-05-31T00:08:00.001-04:00

So VH1 premiered the 2-hour movie (now sitcom) produced by Queen Latifah tonight! I have been waiting eagerly anticipating the debut of this show since I got the read the news about it 3 months ago. Since Girlfriends (UPN/CW) had an untimely demise and being that The Game is lacking in character integrity and has become more ghetto (a big mistake) now that it is on BET I was hungry for this new series. Just because you are now own a black network doesn't mean it's time to bring out the stereotypes of what it means to be black! But that is a whole 'nother post!

"Single Ladies" is a comedic drama about Val, Keisha, and April - three best friends with different philosophies on sex and relationships.

Val ( Stacey Dash) is an ambitious aspiring fashion mogul who wants to find a true partner. Keisha (LisaRaye McCoy), on the other hand, is a former video dancer just looking for a rich man to keep her in style. April (Charity Shea,) has supposedly found the perfect man and the perfect marriage - but is learning that marriage isn't necessarily a happy ending. "

"Single Ladies" is a comedic drama about Val, Keisha, and April - three best friends with different philosophies on sex and relationships.

Val ( Stacey Dash) is an ambitious aspiring fashion mogul who wants to find a true partner. Keisha (LisaRaye McCoy), on the other hand, is a former video dancer just looking for a rich man to keep her in style. April (Charity Shea,) has supposedly found the perfect man and the perfect marriage - but is learning that marriage isn't necessarily a happy ending.

As mundane as that sounds the show is quite good. All the 30-something year old are trying to find their true selves in life. And what isn't a great show without any juicy mouthwatering drama and this show definitely has IT! The acting and writing is a bit sub-par but I give it to the ladies for committing to their character and it showed!

The main reason I watched this show is because it was made by black people and produced by Queen Latifah, whom I ADORE! We must always support our black LGBT people! My main gripe with the show is the black gay character. I think his name is Omar or Roman! He is a co-worker and a good friend of Val as well as the other two ladies.

I was disgusted that his character is nothing more but "stereotypical black gay"! He is a SLUT! Who doesn't even remember the number of partner's he has been with! Oh! And he's always trying to catch, entice, pull the "straight boys"! I cringed so mothafucking hard! Like, WHY?!

How come he couldn't be intelligent, not a slut, honest friend! Someone who has integrity and has self-respect. Queen Latifah, who is a lesbian, should have not been ok with this airing. I know drama is good but DAMN must we black gay men always be stereotypical in media & entertainment! We are always over-sexed, loud & flamboyant, DL, and whatever else! I'm not sure whether or not I will continue to watch the show or not!

I will say that the show has it's refreshing qualities. I've never seen a show talk about the life of a video vixen, who is Keshia, play by Lisa Raye. The show definitely shined light on the negative and detrimental aspects of being a video vixen. And all the other drama is really good trashy drama!

This is a great show to indulge in although it is trashy in some instances! Queen Latifah, created the show for fans who lost "Girlfriends". Which it does to a certain extent! But "Girlfriends" provided black women with more respecting roles and positive light. The women were lawyers, authors, real-estate agents, and possessed multiple degrees. Not saying that a fashion stylist and video vixen are beneathe them...Girlfriends just did not portray or glorify black women stereotypes which was REFRESHING and NECESSARY and still is! I must say that The Game definitely has competition with this show! And if The Game creators, writers, and producers doesn't get the show back on track, the integrity and quality that it embodied when it was on The CW they will be losing viewers because of Single Ladies!

MYA’S K.I.S.S. TRACKLISTING & COVER

2011-03-09T11:31:00.002-05:00

Manhattan Recordings just released the track listing and album cover for K.I.S.S (Keep It Sexy & Simple). April 6th!!! I can NOT wait for this album. With the leaks and the previews Mya seems very comfortable and in tune with this new fresh sound. Roll on April 6th! You all make sure you support Mya on her 2nd Japan exclusive album release. Mya has state that she wants to release this album worldwide possibly as a mixtape here in the U.S. and followed by another full fledged album for the U.S. #TeamMya
01 K.I.S.S. （Pro. Chuck Harmony）
02 Rear View Mirror
03 Fabulous Life （Pro. Jeff Miyahara & Fredro）
04 Mess Up My Hair (Pro. Young Yonny)
05 Earthquake Ft. Trina
06 Fugitive of Love
07 Love Me Some You Ft.Marques Houston
08 Mr.Incredible
09 Problem + Solution
10 Runnin’ Back Ft.Iyaz
11 Before U Say Goodbye (Pro. Daisuke “D.I.” Imai)
12 Love Comes Love Goes
13 Evolve
♥ JAPAN BONUS TRACK ♥
14 Alive（Pro. DJ Komori & Uta）
15 Fabulous Life (Dawty Remix)
16 Simplicity (Dawty Remix)
Link

NEW MYA K.I.S.S. MUSIC

2011-03-02T15:25:00.005-05:00

My girl MYA is back! Preparing to release her 2nd Japan exclusive album K.I.S.S. (Keep It Simple & Sexy) on April 6, 2011. Mya is venturing more into the R&B and J-Pop infused sound and it sounds crisp and wonderful! Mya is finally cultivating a sound for her and she sounds so at home singing over these beats. With the songs that have leaked thus far we can expect a lot of feel good music from! My favorite tracks from the album thus far have been “Fabulous Life”, “Alive”, and “Before U Say Goodbye”!
“Fabulous Life” is a fun fresh 80s freestyle/j-pop song that will have you feeling GRAND in no time! This will definitely help you get ready for a fun night with your friends & “glow like a diamond!” As MTV stated, “Whether it's in Tokyo or New York City, it's an addictive piece of dance pop stuffed with melodies.” Mya’s single Fabulous Life was #1 on iTunes Japan’s R&B/Soul chart! - Jan. 19, 2011

“Alive” is a bright, airy, catchy dance-pop that will definitely make you feel ALIVE!!!

“Runnin Back” featuring Iyaz is a pop hip-hop song that just goes so well together. She sweetly sings about running back to her lover. And Iyaz reggae rap definitely takes the song to another level. Runnin’ Back is currently #1 on iTunes Japan’s R&B Soul chart!! Also, Runnin’ Back (featuring Iyaz) and Before U Say Goodbye are currently in the top 10 list on the Recochoku Western Music charts.
Mya feat. Iyaz - Runnin' Back (Original Version) by manhattan recordings
“Before U Say Goodbye” is another gem! This is more R&B meets J-pop.The more I listen to this song the more I fall in love with it. Her soft sensual vocals and the feel of the record is just doing something for me!
MYA "Before U Say Goodbye" (Pro.D.I.) by manhattan recordings

TAKE A LISTEN DOWN MEMORY LANE!

2011-02-28T20:49:00.003-05:00

5 Seconds of Every #1 Billboard Hot 100 Hit From 1993-2011 by AnthonyDC
I just thought that this was so cool! Some one complied all of the #1 Billboard hits from 1993-2011! This was so fun jamming to those snippets! Quick flashbacks of feel good times and all that jazz! Gone on and hit that play button! Enjoy! ^_^
My girl Mariah Carey was all up and through this! LOVE HER!

KAZAKY! KAZAKY!

2011-02-28T17:30:00.004-05:00

THEY ARE KILLING THIS CHOREO! Y’all can not tell me that they are not hot! I love their blend of femininity and masculinity! Two thumbs up to the Ukraine for producing these hotties! Their vocals are the only thing that's missing but hey you can’t win them all RIGHT?!

RESPECT?

2011-01-22T00:53:00.001-05:00

If your friend, boo, and/or family can not respect you then one does NOT deserve to be in your space. By that I mean, if those said persons keep offending you with their words/actions then they do not respect you. Mutual respect no matter the type of the relationship is very much essential to it growing/evolving into a healthy one! - Me!

So I have this friend that I'm talking to. We have a thing for each other so you know where I'm headed. But I am this thing with these two words: BITCH & FAG! Now now now I am not a prude be any means. I may be much more serious than the average person but that is just the nature of me...I am a Capricorn ya know.

Now this said friend loves to use the words bitch and fag. Bitch being his favorite. Now none of my friends constantly refer to each other as such. Maybe every blue moon but that is still very rare. He on the other hand likes to say it all the time. But I'm like I do not like that shit! His excuse is that he is joking and that he is only playing. Yeah, I'm not laughing. Oh boy claims that it is apart of his everyday language. So I asked him do he refer to his best friends as such and he said yes.

Correct me if I am wrong? But when you are becoming friends with someone you get to know them, right? I told him from the beginning that I am not fond of being called a bitch on the regular and that the word offends me and gets under my skin much like fag does too.

A. Would it be right for the person to just not refer to you as those words and not use those words around you if they really respected you as a friend? I say yes!

B. Should they just continue to say it because "that's just them and I'm too sensitive"? I say no.

C. Another pet peeve....I hate when people use the phrase "I'm just playing" when the keep offending someone after they told them to quit it, at least in their space.

Because the bottom line not all of your friends are the same. No one person is the same. Being that we all know this shouldn't everyone be pretty flexible in their interpersonal relationships with dealing with different significant individuals: friends, lovers, family? Yes, right!

I share this with all because I'm tired of getting offended like this! And I really just thought that this was taught by one's parent or eventually learned by a certain age.

If a person can not stop with their "offensive jokes" then they must not value the relationship whatever kind it is.

WHAT ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?! NEW VIDEO!

2010-11-22T13:04:00.001-05:00

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HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

2010-10-30T10:47:00.000-04:00

Hey y'all! I will be attending my first Halloween Part ever! I'm so excited and I pray that it goes well and that have loads of fun and that the fun bubbly positive energy will be in the atmosphere for every to just have fun fun fun! I am going to be a "good" vampire....LOL is there a such thing? Oh well that's what I'm going to be as you all know I'm not too fond of anything "dark" at least not on ME! ;)

What are y'all plans? Please do share! I will update you all with a picture of my costume here and on my facebook as well. If you would like to add me on facebook...Here You Go: http://www.facebook.com/tavaresjh1

Happy Halloween....now on to Thanksgiving, Christmas, MY BDAY (Dec. 26), and New Year's....awww I LOVE IT! So festive. I'm actually play Mariah Carey's new christmas cd as I type this. You all have fun and be safe! Much love!

THE CHRONICLE BOX - SAGGING PANTS

2010-10-30T10:40:00.000-04:00

Our 3rd show is up! Yay! Omg and we are soooo happy and thankful that our first 2 videos got 500+ views our Debut video, Dreams + Beyonce's Pregnancy, is sooo close to 1,000! :)

Anyway, get into our new episode where we interview a variety of students about the possible banning of sagging pants in GA! How do you all feel about sagging pants in general? Also, tell me if you all like the new intro. :) Plus...Rihanna is rumored to be fighting AGAIN?! LOL HA!

THE CHRONICLE BOX - RESPONSE TO MY PRINCESS BOY

2010-10-25T09:40:00.000-04:00

Hey y'all! Episode 2 is up! It's just us sharing our opinion on this entire issue with the Kilodavis family! So please Like and Subscribe and share with us your thoughts and comments on the video page! Thank you all so much!

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THE CHRONICLE BOX - 1st EVER YOUTUBE SHOW!

2010-10-24T07:36:00.000-04:00

Hi, everyone. I hope you all are doing GREAT on this Sunday! If not I send my positive energy and love your way. Me and one of my best friends have started a Youtube channel. Yes! You read correctly. LOL It was just something we wanted to do after I presented the idea to Ms.Vanie and she was like yeah lets do it. It's just us bringing you all some really good topics and discussions as well as laughs! I hope you all enjoy the show! More will definitely come!

But this 1st show is very light and fluffy and funny. It serves as an introductory fun video.

PLEASE LIKE, COMMENT, and SUBSCRIBE YOU ALL! Also, feel free to share our videos and post them on your blog if you all really enjoy which I hope you all do. Get into it!

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MOREHOUSE MEN REACT TO THE VIBE MAGAZINE ARTICLE!

2010-10-16T12:53:00.000-04:00

I love that the men of Morehouse decided to stand up and voice their wide range of opinions, thoughts, ideas, and perspectives surround the gay and straight dynamic on their campus relating to the Vibe magazine article the "Mean Girls of Morehouse College". It's a fascinating watch and I applaud the guys for facilitating a much needed discussion.

Thoughts? Well in a nut shell I can receive all the arguments. But no person should feel unsafe, unprotected, and unaccepted on their campus! I think Morehouse has an opportunity to be leaders when it comes to black males expressing their gender and what it is to them! I do agree with the young thick stocky man who is in the white T-Shirt voicing his opinion. I could go on and on and on but that's too much type I don't have the energy right now.

THE BEAUTIFUL FAMILY OF THE "PRINCESS BOY"

2010-10-16T10:32:00.001-04:00

A Seattle family has grown to accept their five-year-old son, who likes to wear dresses, sequin and pink. The Kidodavis have not only accepted young Dyson, their heartfelt support has made local news in the Washington city after Dyson’s mom, Cheryl wrote a children’s book about it.

My Princess Boy tells the story of a young boy who is not like other boys his age because he desires to be a princess.

Dyson says, “I like to dress up in different kinda of clothes, and jewelry.” Cheryl reveals she first became aware that her son was fond of women’s apparel while picking him up at day care. Dyson was wearing a red sequin dress and pink heels. Dyson’s mother admits that she was initially uncomfortable, and said she went shopping for boy’s clothes and Kung Fu gear to place in the dress up closet at Dyson’s daycare. The next time she picked Dyson up, Cheryl says he had on a yellow dress.
Cheryl is not the only one on board with Dyson’s way of expressing himself—the child’s father is 100 percent supportive of Dyson’s love for dresses and jewelry as well.

Dyson’s father, Dean Kilodavis, says, “I’m fine with it. I just want him to be happy and healthy.” Dean continues, “In the end, when he’s grown up, I want him to be able to say that no matter what he chooses, my parents were supportive of me.” Dean says Dyson knows he has a sanctuary at home.

The support for Dyson’s desire to be a princess doesn’t end with his family–Dyson’s school also accepts him, thanks to his teacher. The entire school was given notice by the teacher about Dyson’s wish to be a princess for Halloween. Dyson’s teacher shares that there was no bullying, some students even dressed in solidarity with Dyson by wearing ballet dresses.

Cheryl hopes her new My Princess Boy book will further promote anti-bullying.

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I have no doubt that this young boy will surely grow up self-assured and confident and just so comfortable in his own skin. He will be a force to be reckoned with because he will have great love for his authentic self thanks to the STRONG FIRM love and support from his family, especially his Father! Father's roles in their kids lives are just as important and instrumental just as the mother's presence. I must applaud this family for doing what family are supposed to do which is love and accept all of you and encourage you to grow to be happy and healthy! It's a quite easy concept and wow they are doing just that! They are socializing him to be his natural self! Instead of trying to force those masculine characters upon him that is defined by society (who has it all wrong).

This story just warmed me up on the inside that I had to share. And like his mother stated of course he will get some looks and laughs and mean words but at the end of the day his family love and support for him will be tremendously out-weighed from the outsiders. I wish this family nothing but many blessings and love and protection from God! And I pray that many of the other families that view this will learn something from his parents! ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MYA!!!

2010-10-10T12:49:00.001-04:00

YES! My gurl is 31 today y'all! And she just released a new dance track (read: so gay and RuPaul-esque) called "It's My Birthday"! I'm sure those who love true dance music will enjoy this. I'm not that into the track because it just doesn't fancy my taste...but it did tickle me and make me laugh! I'm sure alot of the gays will eat it up. Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all of the Libras out there! Yay! My bday is coming up soon = stand up CAPRICORNS! Oww lol

Listen & Enjoy Here : http://micahjesse.com/micah-jesse-exclusive/exclusive-listen-to-myas-new-song-its-my-birthday-10-10-10/

Thoughts?

Get into some classic Mya:

THE THING WITH BISHOP EDDIE LONG & THE BLACK CHURCH

2010-09-28T16:11:00.000-04:00

As of right now I am completely tired of talking about this issue. Tired of people being biased towards him because they know or attend his church. Tired of people not really looking at this situation and what this situation is trying to teach us but Bishop Carlton Pearson has said IT ALL. His words are nothing but the truth and it makes so much sense. He share's my stance on the issue and I wish we all could see what the message is from this. Anyway check out the video and leave your thoughts. Bishop Carlton spoke some powerful and profound words.

MYA IS ALIVE

2010-09-23T02:36:00.004-04:00

So, my babe is back for her newest single off the Manhattan Records compilation called "The Exclusive 2000-2001 Decade Best". It will be released October 6, 2010 in Japan. The song is already in the Top 10 Japanese Itunes R&B charts and it is the #1 Ringtone right now.

I am really digging the song! She sings the song with soft sweet airy soothing vocals that matches the melody and beat perfectly. It's positive song and just makes you feel good. It's bubblegum pop, well in this case Jpop, and don't gforget catchy. It's kinda reminiscent of Janet Jackson's "Escapade". With all of that being said I think this should be serviced World Wide. This song has potential to official bring Mya back and secure her spot as a front runner! I can definitely see a colorful upbeat dance video, in the vein of "Escapade", taking this song to new heights! Yes..I'm all smiles now!

Download Mya Alive blazingswarm mp3

So are y'all diggin it?

KISSY FACE!

2010-09-09T18:46:00.000-04:00

This video was just beautiful and hot! Like "awww"! So I just had to share it! Enjoy y'all. ^_^

YES! TO LIFE!! LIGHT, JOY, AND ABUNDANCE!!!

2010-09-06T22:32:00.001-04:00

Hi, y'all. I have just been feeling wonderful! Not stressing about anything giving all to God. I have just been focused on positive feelings, events, happenings in my life. Just going with the light and making my life the best life possible. I just feel that there is something huge on the horizon for me and it is unfolding now!

The school year has started off wonderful! Love my classes and my professors! Love the karate class and the social events and just living in the BLISS!

My labor was fabulous..spent the entire day with my very good friend Inavoj at Atlantic Station here in Atlanta. Shopped, ate good at Cafe 19, went to the theatre to see Takers. And speaking of that sorry to spoil it for you guys but it's nothing new....it's the all male version of Set it Off (Queen Latifah, Jada Pinkett Smith). The eye candy was SOOO DELICIOUS though! Yummy!...

I am AFFIRMING and DECLARING with all my FAITH, TRUST, AND CONFIDENCE in God, his Universe, and his Angels that this school year and the years to come with be filled with nothing but love, joy, prosperity, peace, happiness, laughs, abundance in all areas, and success!! Must believe it to make it happen! And baby it has been happening! And I am so blessed, grateful, thankful, and appreciate of everything God! Thank you for surrounding me and protecting me day in and out! For always being there with me and giving me love and directing me path and unfolding all of these wonderful grand events in my life! I love you!

WHAT ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS? (The Short Version)

2010-09-06T22:20:00.001-04:00

So, it has been about a month since me and my very best friend for life (or so I thought would be) are not even friends anymore. Our intimate relationship has dissolved and I think it ended quite ugly because that chick is a dramatic one but still I always wish her the best.

See Mickey has always been the dramatic out the group being the GEMINI that she is. But this time she took it to far. After, rarely showing appreciation for our friendship after we have been through so much the girl went off on the deep end. I mean we have been through attempted suicide's (her end), cheating boyfriends, crazy parents, stress, even her telling ME that I will burn in hell because I'm gay and doesn't have the same beliefs that she is. Crazy right?!

Something so small, she made it so much bigger. We were friends for like 5yrs since 9th or 10th grade were we really became TIGHT! Heck, she was one of the first one's I came out too. Come to find out she had a crush on me. LOL Anywhoo..so the straw that broke the camel's back was when she started talking out of her ass about dropping friends who weren't any good to her. This is after she got pissed because the crew didn't have the funds for a night out on the town and she took as we didn't love her or put any effort it. We were all like, "Girl Bye! You tripping as usual". And she was! So I told her to be specific and not vague and she started getting heated and talking sideways. So this is the 1000th time and the last the she will ever feel like she can say anything to me and think I'm supposed to suggest deal with her radioactive ass. Oh no ma'am! I gave her just wanted she wanted...dissolved the friendship! She was not about to make me stressed out over nothing! TJ does not do stress and worries and being weary ANYMORE and damn sho not at her expense!

To be quite honest, I have been quite happy with out her. Much more free. And none of her BS because like I said, she always was the one beating up on the group and creating drama. Although, we would for some friendships to last a lifetime not all of them do are will.

Moral: Cherish and love your friends and APPRECIATE your real and genuine one's and make sure they know that! It's a shame when a new boyfriend gets treated ten times better than your friends who have been there through thick and thin (she was like that and I know some ppl out here are like that too). SO GET IT RIGHT!

KEN DAHL - IDENTICAL TWIN....HOT!

2010-07-26T22:37:00.000-04:00

Wow! I've never thought I'd be saying this but if I wanted some way to be the 1st breakout black gay artist to make some good music, Ken would be that person. I've heard of his name for a few hears and even heard of his dance electro songs...but that didn't really pull me in. I am intrigued now though and I love this song. It's a beautiful love pop ballad. And the lyrics are NOT pedestrian and amateur. During the beginning, he actually kinda sounds a lil like a male version of Brandy! His vocals are nice too! I can definitely hear this on the mainstream radio! And it definitely should be! I need to get an mp3 version download of this song somewhere....help me y'all! But give this song a listen and tell me what you all think.

MYA PERFORMING STORMY WEATHER LIVE! THE BEST YOU'VE NEVER SEEN!

2010-07-25T01:22:00.004-04:00

This is the beautiful and criminally underrate Ms. MYA performing her rendition on Lena Horne's "Stormy Weather" Live at the 2003 Women Rocks platform for LifeTime television. Now many of you have probably never seen this but here she is showcasing her voice in it's rawest form and it is just gorgeous. It's like breathing taking velvet (LOL, dont ask)! I hope you all check this out and enjoy as well as comment! Oh yeah check out her standing ovation at the end! Yes ma'am! I wish MYA much success for I love her so much and wish she could truly shine. After years of being black mailed in the music industry...After releasing 2 albums Liberation and Sugar & Spice, both are really HOT, in Japan I hope she gets her time her to rise as the diva she is! She will be releasing "Love Is The Answer" soon...as well as the video, next month allegedly. It will stand as the anthem for the NOH8 Campaign. ^_^

THE STORY OF COSMETICS

2010-07-21T14:01:00.001-04:00

"It turns out that while you and I can choose to buy the safer products made by responsible companies, the really important decisions don't happen when we take a product off the shelf. What counts is when companies and government agencies decide what should be allowed on the shelves."

"It turns out the average American bathroom is a minefield of toxic chemicals. Sunscreens, lipstick, moisturizer, shaving cream -- many cosmetics and personal care products for babies, kids, moms and dads contain chemicals linked to cancer or other health problems like learning disabilities, asthma and even damaged sperm."

Links: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/annie-leonard/ithe-story-of-cosmeticsi_b_653866.html
http://safecosmetics.live2.radicaldesigns.org/index.php

To Find the Safest Products: http://www.cosmeticsdatabase.com/

YOUR BLACK & BROWN IS BEAUTIFUL WORLD

2010-07-20T14:17:00.002-04:00

Hey Y'all! Well I had to do this post and this is not an African-American post because we are NOT the only race to have the rich black skin and deepest depths of the color brown to be our beautiful complexion. Indians, possibly the darkest Asians, have skin color hues just like those of African Americans. And let us not forget about Hispanics, and the Aborigines. All have many different shades of brown & black in their heritage. Now many would not know Asians are blessed to have skin color to go to the same depths as African Americans but they do. They only things is that you DO NOT see it on Mainstream television or movies. I was floored when I saw an Asian dark than me, in the movie 40 Year Old Virgin. And her skin was GORGEOUS! Just like there is propaganda and subliminal messages and techniques to promote that lighter is better here in the states the exact same thing is going on in India.

Which is why I am surprised? Well NOT REALLY! You can't expect too much from mainstream commercial products...some of their sick advertising is apart of "media propaganda" as well. But Vaseline, has launched a Facebook app to the Facebook users of India, which help users fade out any "offending" pigmentation in their complexions. Ok, what can be offending about a pigmentation! It does NOT murder, rape and steal from people. Yet, they choose to use the word "offending". Ugh...sick right? This particular Vaseline bleaching products is geared towards the men! Which is a first because most skin bleaching creams here in the U.S. and the world are geared towards African American women and Asian women. There was a study done, about 5 years ago, and White women knew nothing about skin bleaching! Those products was NOT in their stores. Oh and check this! As I have told you all before, the active ingredient, Hydroquinone, that is used to perform the skin bleaching can also cause CANCER and kidney damage among other things. Although, the reception as been GREAT to the app and being that skin-bleaching products are very popular here in the U.S. and India, which account for 60% of cosmetic sales in India!

I understand the free market and whatever else but WHY? Why continue take this world backwards! We know there are more affluent Whites than African Americans here and the same things seems to be the case in India. Because fairer, whiter complexions are setting atop of their castes system. But still IT IS NOT RIGHT! This is major damage to the natural beauty of the people of the world. These companies should be promoting self-love and beauty in all colors! And not the Western European, standard of beauty.

So to every ethnic race in this world YOUR BLACK & BROWN IS BEAUTIFUL! Love it and do not fall victim to those stupid ass companies! And do NOT waste your money on Vaseline horrible products!

"Ain't we ourselves? And ain't we comfortable being ourselves?"

Links to the Facebook App: http://globalpoverty.change.org/blog/view/unilever_builds_a_facebook_app_to_help_indians_whiten_their_skin

WHAT DO YOU SEE?

2010-07-13T21:26:00.000-04:00

Ok so my lady love, MYA, posted this picture on her twitter and asked that question. She see's two people dancing and so do I. How cool is this? Do you guys see the same?

Please follow her on twitter! She is hilarious and is quite insightful, which is why I love her!
http://twitter.com/MISSMYA

ORGANIC CARE: VELVET CAVE'S WHIPPED SHEA BUTTER HAIR CREME' PICTORIAL

2010-07-13T18:55:00.000-04:00

Alright, so with all the commercial hair products out there it's hard to actually grow your hair in a healthy way. Because the ingredients, I mean CHEMICALS, can cause an adverse effect to your hair. You may think your buying a wave pomade to produce waves and it may produce them but underneath the surface those chemicals are NOT good. Plus, the very special guy that's in my life, BJH (xoxo) is convinced that his hair is thinning. So for both of those reasons I wanted to make a hair creme'.

Just as a disclaimer, any product that has shea butter in it...you can use all over your body and hair! Shea butter is just that awesome! So this may be titled a hair creme' but you can use it anywhere.

I'm not going to give away my recipe but I will tell you a few things that are in it, but I will share the pictures of this in the making. At first, I was pleased with the scent of the product myself..but family & my babe, who I made if for, actually like it to my surprise. So hey good reviews changed my mind about my own product lol.

Of course shea butter, it's the base. I have Jojoba Oil, Apricot Kernel Oil, Rosemary Co2 and a few other ingredients that made up this whipped hair creme'.

Now this was more challenging to make because the whipping part is very sensitive and it must be timed correctly to get the consistency you want or the consistency of whipped creme. Hence, which is why it's called WHIPPED because it's mimicking whipped creme'.

The oils used in this and the essential oils are great for hair because it promotes hair growth. Also, used to help maintain your hair and waves as well. It may have alot of oils in it but there is an essential oil in there that stops dandruff.

A few tips for hair growth: Massage your scalp! It's best to do it after the shower when blood is flowing and everything is relaxed! Used products that makes your scalp tingle like lemon, peppermint, or citrus because it promotes blood flow. And more blood flow means more oxygen and then more growth of course.

ORGANIC CARE: VELVET CAVE'S LEMON TEA TREE PROTECTIVE BODY BUTTER

2010-07-13T18:17:00.001-04:00

Hey guys, this is my 1st all natural product that I made! And yes Velvet Cave, is my company name! It's a very protective body butter that I have come to love as I used over this month and a half. I'm really proud of myself. Anyone can use this on their body. Since it's so protective, I thought it would be bad to use in the summer but it works well for my entire body. And that is, because all of the products are natural and are very close to the natural oils your body produce so they seep in so well. It does not feel heavy and it does not sit on your skin like baby oil! Plus, it gives your skin a nice glow! I love it and my family members and friends you have tried it really like it too.

If you would like to try it, here is the recipe so you can make your own! YAYYYY!!!

1 table spoon of Cocoa Butter Unrefined
2-3 tablespoons of Raw/Pure Shea Butter (Yellow or Ivory-more freshier & better healing properties)
1 table spoon of Castor Oil
1 table spoon of Avocado Oil

Melt all together over water on the stove. Microwave makes the butter's grainy.
After it's melted whisk in 4,000 IU of Vitamin E or 1 Vitamin E pill, just squeeze the oil out into the mixture.
As it's cooling add 2ml of Lemon Essential Oil, .5 ml of Lavender Oil, and .5 of Tea Tree Oil.
Or mix whatever essential oils you want to create your own fragrance.

Makes 4oz...you can use empty baby food jars/cans to store this in. Refrigerate for longer freshness...depending on use should last about a month or two.

I would sell this and ship it out but I don't have all the funds yet for that but it's coming.

If your interested in natural products try this out and tell me what you think of my recipe.

LIP CARE: WHICH LIP BALM TO CHOOSE?

2010-07-13T17:46:00.000-04:00

Ok, if you are like me and love your lips and have developed a slight addiction to lip balm or not! LOL But I'm sure when you go on our lip balm hunt that we are all looking for moisture, hydration, scent, and taste! We all should use it because it helps us all look more polished & attractive and NO one likes kissing dry crusty lips.

Let's start with the BAD first. So I was watching TV and this Nivea commercial came on talking about their Kiss of Moisture lip balm and like a little child on Christmas my eyes got big and glittery! LOL If I'm not mistaken, I think this is there very 1st time producing lip balm and well they need to TRY AGAIN!!! It was HORRIBLE! The WORST lip balm that an alleged good quality brand has ever produced. This is on the level on those $1 candy lip balms (Nerds, Fruit Punch, Chocolate Hersey). Actually, they may be better because they hydrate better. So I used this for about 1 week and they should totally take the word MOISTURE OUT of the name of this product. Now, it does make your lips soft & kissable for like 2 minutes! No moisture or hydration at all! Save your $3! Nice design though.

Next, we have Aquafina's Hydrating Lip Balm with Jojoba Oil (the Original 1). I was VERY impressed with this one! It hydrates your beautiful lips to the FULLEST! Tastes wonderful, smells nice, and gives your lips a nice tingle which is GREAT after ex foliating because it brings blood to your lips making them appear more fuller & INVITING! The hydration lasts for a good amount of time. And most of there ingredients are natural! Besides Burt's Bee's, that I have never used -too expensive, Aquafina has the most natural ingredients than the other commercial products out. I have no doubt that you all will love this one!

Last, we have Aquafina's Hydrating Lip Oil Balm. This tastes soo good! If your kissing some one they will NOT get enough of your lips! Trust me! If you are a fan of oil...you will like this too! Gives your lip a nice shine than normal lip balm...kinda like lip gloss in a since. A little bit goes a long way! It takes a while for the oil to actually seep in and I dont like that! I need immediate hydration and I'm not a fan of oil just sitting on top of my skin. But this is pretty ok!

What are your favorite lip balms and why?

WHAT?! CIARA THINKS SHE CAN BEAT JANET JACKSON

2010-06-19T16:17:00.001-04:00

Yes, Ms. Ciara thinks she can about dance Ms.Jackson in a given dance off. She was on Big Boy Morning radio show and he asked her that question. Cici said, "Well of course I'm going to bid on myself."

Now, I have thought about this and I see people making their argument with, "Ciara's younger", well that is a FAIL!!! No more how old Janet is...she can bring the HEAT when need be! Ciara is filled with booty-shaking and gyrating. Now, when Janet came back in 06 with her "So Excited" performance and SHUT IT DOWN at her age...the bitch is a force to be reckoned with! Don't let her fabulous recent American Idol performance fool you all. She's a legend she don't have to work as hard now and that's the type of performance she gave! But if she need to remind anyone Janet WILL!

You all be the judge...who's performance and dance break packed a much harder punch?! Janet's without a doubt!

Don't you feel the passion and the power in her every move!

Cici can dance but it's lazy!!! Sorry she needs to be hitting those spots much harder!

YES! SHANICE SINGING LADY GAGA'S "ALEJANDRO"

2010-06-11T15:32:00.000-04:00

Okay, so I'm sure you all remember Shanice. Her biggest hit was "I Love Your Smile"! Well homegurl has been singing up a storm on YouTube for about 2yrs now. And for the life of me I can not think why hasn't a big label scooped this goldmine up yet. She looks gorgeous and so youthful, they so can downplay her age. But more importantly her pipes are still AMAZING!!!! I can so see her singing what Mariah Carey can't....those pop ballad's...i.e. Beyonce's "Halo". She can give all these "singers" a run for there money and SIT THEM DOWN!

Well she just sung the brake off of "Alejandro" as usual! And I was just thinking Gaga she really incorporate her into one of her performance of "Alejandro"...she should do the intro! I think that's a good idea! So watch and enjoy y'all...comment as well!

ORGANIC CARE: I AM MAKING MY OWN SH*T!

2010-06-09T20:09:00.000-04:00

Okay, after much thought I am going to start making my own skin and body products. I've thought about going natural for a LONG time! After doing my research there are so many chemicals that are not regulated by the FDA or the law so anyone can pack a product and put anything in it!!! And those chemicals end up have long-term effects like cancer, as well as others. More chemicals are in products that are targeted to whom? PEOPLE OF COLOR! Considering there is NO products out that is really designed for African Americans, and no, Ambi does not count! They will BURN your skin off! I advise all my readers to do your research and stay away from those synthetic, fake chemicals that does harm on the inside while it's allegedly beautifying, correcting, anti-aging, de-wrinkling, your face and body.

I have been using pure black soap and pure shea butter and 10% pure aloe vera (bought it from Kroger) and it has been doing a great job on my skin! It's still not wear I want it to be though. Because of the processed food that I eat at the Cafe while school is in session as caused my skin to become blemished with random brown spots across my face. After I changed my diet, no beef or pork, or sugars, LOTS of water lots of fruits and stay away from anything processed (hard to do on a college meal plan DUH) my skin is making lots of progress. So I hope you guys stay with me as I start on one of my passions and start making my own all natural skin care and body products....this is just the beginning of something utterly magnificent.

Giving Back...Ahh I LOVES IT!

2010-05-23T08:32:00.006-04:00

Okay so last month, I went with friends to Woodland High School in metro-atlanta to help out with the Relay for Life Birthday Event for the Cancer Survivors. And boy did it feel amazing. I helped set-up and pass out there goodie bags which was my favorite part. Why? Because you stand behind your table and you get to greet and say Happy Birthday to all the cancer survivors you have survived their cancer and who will continue to fight. To see there face light up with colors as they express their thanks you's and appreciation for me saying that and being an aid to help brighten their day and make it that much better. It was grand! I love giving back to people and helping them in anyway that I can! It brings me soo much joy! I guess you can say that is why I am on this road to become a kick ass Psychologist to help our kids, couples, and families stay healthy.

Just this past Friday, and I donated a large trash bag filled with clothes to the Good Will. I was going to give them to my father, but I thought that God has blessed him with a very decent job, sound health, and a sound mind (sometimes lol) that we can go out and buy clothes and give back. There are many individuals who are not in that position so I said "Yes, I'm going to donate them to the Good Will". There are many men and young men who I know will appreciate my clothing. Just because it's being donated doesn't mean that it has to be graddy and clothes that is out of fashion...because although I'm sure that they would be appreciative of whatever they receive. Why not, give some clothes that is in good condition and in style to help bust their confidence or give their self-esteem and push. You never know that could trigger something to help get them on the right path....self-actualization and esteem plays a pertinent role in some of these cases.

Anywhoo Dahlin, If you haven't given back or made the time for it? Do it now! It feels so wonderfully amazing to be the positive radiant smiling face on the giving end! :)

Home For Summer

2010-05-23T08:24:00.002-04:00

Ahh yes, the spring semester ended two and half weeks ago and I find myself back home in the country again. Luckily, I got a job where I can work and save up some money to finally get my car! But that job just ended this past Friday so so much for that. I did make close to $300 in 1 week but that isn't close enough to want I need for the down payment on a car. Staying positive and keeping my fingers cross hoping that I find a decent full-time one that gives me everything I need.

I vowed to myself that this will be the last summer that I will be staying home and I have got to make sure of it. I have out grown this small town and my parents home...I want more and I will receive more! This house is like a caveman house because there is NOT freaking central AC to keep us cool. And when there is not heat, I over heat, and the transformation is a BITCHY one! And no one likes me when I mean and bitchy....it's a known fact that HEAT makes ppl act crazy, research it, because it definitely rings true for me.

And it's not like I have forgot where I came from. I love this place and what it all has time me. I am just sick and tired of it. The small-ness, the cook-outs every weekend in this hot ass house. Everything is becoming so mundane and it doesn't help to complain so I must make so changes to be where I need to be by the end of my last summer here.

I OWE MONICA AN APOLOGY!!!

2010-03-31T14:46:00.005-04:00

If you all read my review of Monica's new album "Still Standing" then you know that I found it to be quite boring, cold, stale, and emotion less on the first listen. And I was so wrong! The album is quite solid and she really did her thang!! I'm loving it. It took the 3rd or 4th listen but I'm glad I got into it. I just might go out & buy it!! My favorites thus far are: "All I Know", "Here I Am", "Everything To Me", "Mirror", "If Your Were My Man".....I love just about every track although "Black Berry" gets real old QUICKLY!!!! They could have kept that bonus track and put out "Infinity"! :(

Also conograts on her for being #2 on the Billboard's this week with approx. 185,000! Ms. Monica is truly BACK! Next up...Brandy, Mya, and the Queen Project (Tamia, Kelly Price, Deborah Cox)...YAH!

INSPIRATIONAL SUNDAY SONG - JOJO "NOTE TO GOD"

2010-03-28T11:19:00.002-04:00

I Love this song y'all! And I love Jojo for making it! It speakes volumes...enjoy people! ^_^ Happy Sunday, Sunshine, & Rainbows! LOL

"Note To God"

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

No, no no no
We can't do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

MUSIC REVIEW: MONICA - STILL SANDING

2010-03-24T14:06:00.007-04:00

Like many of R&B aficionados, I too was highly anticipating Monica's return to the music forefront with her 5th album "Still Standing". Although, her reality show was boring, hearing her belt out "Infinity" during the album's recording process got me on board with this album. Now I have never really been a real fan of Monica's and this album does not turn me into one! Major disappointment.

Sounds like BORING R&B. Why did they leave out "Infinity"? Bad move J Records!
She sings most of the songs on the album cold & emotionless! And always stays SAFE! She has a very powerful voice so why is she afraid to use it?
Her sound has become stale! It's quite sad when me and my good friend Alex had to keep checking the track-listing to see if we where listening to the same song over & over.
The album is NOT cohesive or seamlessly put together. It flows like an album with songs placed all over the place which it shouldn't be since there is only 10 songs on the album
I loved, "Everything To Me" and "If You Were My Man", although "Everything To Me" is not a true remake since the song doesn't have its own identity apart from the original, Denice Williams "Silly".
I liked, "Mirror", "One In A Lifetime", and "Believing In Me" but with 10 songs every track on the album should have been a BANGER!
I found myself, Questioning: do these songs really sound like her? Because some songs just did not match well with her voice or it could have been her weak deliver.
Furthermore, I can see the other R&B starlets delivery her songs WAY much better than she did! For example, "Blackberry", which sounds very similar to Jamie Foxx's "Blame It", I can hear LeToya Luckett even Kelly Rowland giving that song more UMPH!
Verdict: This album packed do punch at all. Monica keep her voice and material safe, which only puts her in a more stagnant place. She needs to try something FRESH or at least tweak her signature sound! I'm not saying go totally left, as in "Everytime The Beat Drop, although I did jigg to the song lol. I WOULD NOT GO & BUY this album unless I was a Monica STAN!

For the Record: I hear everybody saying" this is real R&B, none of that pop mess, good job Monica." When did real R&B become BORING, cold, and emotionless? I'm just saying.

WINDOW SEAT: ERYKAH BADU IS BACK!

2010-03-13T13:52:00.002-05:00

YES! This song is doing something to me and I'm loving it! It just puts up in that calm, thinking, melancholy, yet feel good state! It's currently on repeat right now! The Erykah Badu we know and love is talking it back! As much as I love her I only enjoyed her single "Honey" from the last album! But this one, as well, as "Jump" featuring Lil Wayne I'm loving! Enjoy her performing it live at Jimmy Fallon and Durand Bernarr, who goes by alcholharmony on youtube cover! This mofo can sing his ASS OFFFF!!!

SPRING BREAK HAS COME & GONE!

2010-03-13T12:31:00.002-05:00

Hey y'all all last week I was on Spring Break. Even though I wanted to go to Chicago to visit my best friend who attends college there. I was NOT ok with being a 3rd wheel because her boyfriend would have been there as well! And she wasn't going to Chrisette Michele concert anymore, so hey it was an all around no. 3rd wheel + Annoying Boyfriend + No Chrisette Michele = Definite No! So of course, I had to go home! None of my friends were staying on campus during the break and I wasn't going to be there alone with no food either!

Home back to the deep south is what it was! And boy, was it quite INTERESTING! I was huffing and puffing about not wanting to go back to that small azz town with doing to do. Yes, I really wanted to see my 3 lovely & very active & very different nephews and the rest of my family. But other than that, I was not feeling going back to the country. But I was wrong! I had ooodles of FUN!

The first night I got home I went bowling with my big brother, cousins & their significant others. Everyone was literally "boo'd up" except for me! And my cousin who's in middle school but hey you get my point! This would be the first time that I have been bowling since MIDDLE SCHOOL y'all! So naturally I was RUSTING! Anyway, the music is playing and me & the ladies were having a BALL! Pizza, bowling and margaritas makes a GREAT night right! My brother claimed me, Tina (his girlfriend), and Kiera (1 of my cousins girlfriend) guzzled down 15 margaritas! WAIT- A -MINUTE NOW! No, not 15 separately but collectively. All 3 of us had our straws and we f*cked those huge margaritas up! I wasn't driving and it was vacation time so I was letting loose! No I didn't get drunk I was just "highly buzzed"! ;) I was the party! Since all the ladies said, "You made it fun"! LOL I could still walk up straight slightly and talk about my Psychology class! I wasn't drunk and surprisingly didn't wake up with a hangover! But I knew I had alot to drink because the next day I was still feeling it! I don't drink regularly just for special occasions! The last time I got "highly buzzed" was my 18th birthday but I'm not a drinker per se!

Anyway, this spring break has been one of the best that I have had thus far! It would be number 2 behind, Spring Break Senior Yr of High School. Anyway, my big sister & the oldest nephew Markis, went to see Avatar! It was great, he was scared of those "big blue monkeys" (his exact words), and became uninterested after about 30 minutes. He said, "I'm finished", and everyone is looking like finished with what. And he was referring to the film & that was hilarious! He's 4 years old so that didn't surprise me, my sister thought his behind would love it though.

Oh yeahhhh, to close out my spring break, my big bother and our father almost had an altercation! WOW! That's another blog...but when you loose respect for your father it does something and that's all imma say!

Back to studying and I'm so ready! ^_^

SIT DOWN SOMEWHERE: SELF-HATING GAYS

2010-02-28T18:14:00.007-05:00

Friday, was quite interesting! I meet someone new through one of my really good friends! Let's call him Nellen (being that he looks unclean, classless, & claimed that I called him Ellen). I already knew of him because this homosexual gives all of us a very bad name. He is LOUD, very flamboyant, always looking like we just rolled out of bed, sloopy while overweight, rude, messy, always talking about anything dealing with sex, and is just way too much y'all. No one wants to be around him everyday because he is a major headache.

Anyway, he invited himself to sit with me & Rochelle. His ass would not have been sitting with me but he's cool with Rochelle, who is really one of my good friends. Tell me, why is this nasty thang talking about ass, dick, 2 Girls and 1 Cup, and things of that nature that no one wants to hear about while we are eating. His filthy mouth even ran off one of our other friends. After dinner, we decided to tag along with me & Rochelle to her room for some chit chat.

We planned to workout Friday night but couldn't because his ass did not leave til 10pm and by 8 my head was aching from his EXTRA behind! I must say it was some good training for me & Rochelle being that we are both Psychology majors and we dissected him that night.

He asked me, "Are you comfortable being gay?". I said, "Yes, why wouldn't I be! It's part of who I am."

Nellen, "I hate being gay! Are you sure you really like it"

Me, "Yes, I am who I am"

Nellen, "See I just don't get that"

Me, "Well you hate yourself"

Nellen, "I wouldn't say that! But I hate the gay part about me"

Rochelle, "Yeah, you hate yourself. Because you haven't accepted all of you"

That was pretty much how the convo was going for most of the night.

He asked me could he tell me what he actually thought about me before even conversing with me. I was like sure. Because I always find it interesting to know what people think about me when they haven't even talked to me about anything. Not that there opinions care because it doesn't their perspective about who I am is just always interesting.

He thought I was the "stereotypical gay guy", like him! He said, "You always walking around with your head high. Like, don't speak to me and yeah bitch I stole your man, so what." That is really how he described or my walk so he says! He went on to say that, "I could see you in the club dancing with your ass all out and running to every big dick."

So Rochelle and I are looking with a dumb founded look on our face. She said, "Imma tell you right now, You are wrong about TJ." "That is not him at all and he don't even look like that." "He do walk with his head high, but aint' nothing wrong with that."

"Wow, are you serious?" is what I was thinking. I'm like dude you just described your own self. But that didn't get to me. I found it quite funny. But dudes like him are always describing their own selves because they think that we hate ourselves just like they do. And furthermore, no one has ever described me in that way! They always said I look "innocent", "nerd", "choir-boy", "cute". The only thing that lined up with what he said and what other people say is that I walk with my head high. And my big sister did say that my walk says, "fuck you bitch" once. But yeah I can't help that just how I walk.

I just found him really interesting. We both told him to seek counseling. He tried to help him but neither of us have our degrees yet so we can only do so much. Plus, he will not be illuminated in one session anyway. Although, he was not in denial about him hating himself, which is the 1st step as we all know.

He honestly is a walking cliche and a stereotype of what black gay men are which is quite sad. And what's even funnier is that he has a crush on me! Eww, NO THANK YOU! TJ can not offer you anything but a wave and a good-bye.

I'm glad I chose Psychology as my major...some one has to be there for our gay adolescent and I plan on being there! They can not end up being detrimental to themselves by turning into a NELLEN!

NATURAL SELECTION & GAYS

2010-02-28T17:58:00.003-05:00

I've never really thought about this but in class last week a discussion came up about LGBT rights. And this one dude in this, made this statement:

"Maybe letting lesbians & gays adopt children can slow down the procreation process because the Earth atmosphere can only sustain so much life".

His theory was based on natural selection and evolution of the mind and body. And being that two people of the same sexes can reproduce children reproduction is slowed down and that the kids at adopt agencies could have a family.

He did not explain it exactly like that but it's very close. I just want to know what you all think about his statement and his theory? It is a quite interesting theory and something to think about it. He had me in class like, "hmmm that is something". Because I've never thought about natural selection and it regarding homosexuality.

Just wanna know ur thoughts....

MONICA - EVERYTHING TO ME!

2010-02-23T22:52:00.002-05:00

Ahhh YES! Monica is definitely back with this great pure R&B Soul hit! I absolutely LOOOOOOVE this song! It's like a new love anthem! To be honest, I have NEVER really been a big FAN of Mo's. She just didn't draw me IN aside from her singles and what not! But I hope she achieves major success with this song! The video is simply great! It has everything a GOOD video needs which is: An entertaining storyline, Amazing looks...doesn't she look beautiful, and some GOOD ass EYE CANDY...YES LAWD Chad Ocho Cinco is something FIONE!!! Anyway, this song just makes me smile and I can't wait til I find my EVERYTHING or until he finds me!

NO HAPPY VALENTINES!

2010-02-14T15:55:00.004-05:00

Hey y'all. Happy Love Day whether it's a happy one or not. I've never really had a good Valentine's day. My mother was always my valentine during high school and I would just day dream about spending the day with the one I love eventually/one day. And last year of course y'all know I was going through a break up the up before Valentine's. So a year later and I'm NOT sad! I actually feel quite good today. Of course I do ave a particular person in mind but I can't see him and I'm not sure if he even celebrates this day considering since he don't celebrate his birthday or Thanksgiving or Christmas. It's always good to fantasize right LOL.

Anyway, the main reason for the title of this post on this day is because of my sleezy father! Last night my brother saw him at a hotel with yet another woman. When of course he should have been planning something special for his wife, my mother! In a way hearing this news from my sister did kinda taint today for me as well as the rest of my siblings. My brother was hurt, according to my sister and she was distraught because she actually bought him a Valentine's card but feels quite stupid for even thinking of him. I'm just disgusted as usual but not surprised! I just got off the phone with him and he's working TODAY! How ironic! Not sure if I believe him but I don't really care. No one has told my mother, because she is feeling great today...I felt her energy & spirit when I talked with her not too long ago.

Oh well, I hope you all enjoyed your love day! Hopefully one day I will experience the one I daydream about which could be any day I just want it to happen...which I'm sure it will eventually! I'm off to finish making love to my homework. ^_^

GET TO KNOW ME!

2010-02-13T22:09:00.002-05:00

This song simply says it ALL!! I love this song I have it on repeat all the time! Instead of typing how I feel you guys can just listen to it being sung! The dude I have caught major feelings for, BJH, is trying to get to know me and I love it. But sometimes I feel some kind of way because we don't talk like we used to! So I can't really tell him all the things I want like I used too...anyway just listen to the song y'all. ENJOY! It's really amazing!

Mateo - Get To Know Me [Official Video] from Mateo on Vimeo.

SMALL THINGS COUNT MAJORLY IN MY BOOK!

2010-02-13T21:17:00.002-05:00

UGH! Riddle me this am I the only who feels this way. When I am REALLY interest and into some one. Just catch feelings for this particular dude whoever it may be the little things counts ALOT!

Small things and consistency are very important to me! If you can't keep your word and do what you will say that bothers me alot! That's kinda really all you have in a sense because if you say you're going to do something and then you don't that's a problem. It doesn't make you truthful or make me feel secure in your word. I hope I'm not being over emotional or analytical but small things are key!

Is it wrong to call when you say you are going to call? Please don't have me waiting by the phone to talk to you feeling all excited and anticipating the conversation and you don't even call! Especially if you used to call alot when everything was brand new and in a few months the calls become sparse! Yes, you make me smile and laugh and feel great when we are together but it almost feel likes there is no communication when we are apart. I would like to tell all the silly things on my mind but when you take forever to reply to a text ( which you didn't do in the beginning) I feel like a fool for even texting you. My communication is the same so why is yours not what it even used to be. I call you don't pick up I can't even get the things off my chest or share whatever thoughts I have with you. And you know in the beginning we talked about everything!

Do y'all understand what I'm saying? Am I the only one who feels like this when it comes to dating someone who have caught feelings for and they have caught feelings for you?

YAY! SPRING SEMESTER

2010-02-13T20:20:00.004-05:00

Hey y'all! I have been gone a long time once again lol! Sorry...HAPPY BLACK HISTORY MONTH though.

Moving along...y'all remember me telling you about my GPA plummeting below what I deemed acceptable, which is a 3.5! I'm happy that the spring semester is here! A month in already and I'm feeling so great about how things are gonna turn out. Mainly because in the Spring I feel much better...just more "feel-good" ya know! So far my grades on my quizzes have been As and Bs with the exception of one C but all of them can be brought because this is the beginning and I love it because I am off to a WONDERFUL start. I am claiming my 4.0 GPA and I will earn it! That's my goal for this semester.

Let's see...I'm taking Psychology, Sociology, Human Health & Disease, American Literature, and Social Science. I absolutely LOVE my Human Health class it has to be my favorite thus far! You learn so much about HUMAN HEALTH & your body! Like how to recognize Herpes I & II on the various parts of the body, what your body burns first when you excercise, the difference between mitosis & meiosis (I never got that in biology in high school...it's so much easier now), and all that good stuff. Stuff like this always interest me...it's the only reason why I stayed in Health Tech in high school to get my CNA license. I think merging Psychology and something relating to Health would be the perfect job for me. Of course I love my Psychology and Sociology classes...it just all makes SENSE to me and I'm just soaking it all up! Now this Social Science class is the most boring! And the only thing that has interested so far in it is Power and Society and that was the 1st week of class...

Everyone in school right now...HAPPY GOOD GRADES! HEHE ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

2009-12-26T12:06:00.004-05:00

Yes, TODAY IS MY DAY GUYS! 20 years old! And I will be celebrating another year that the AWESOME GOD has blessed me with! Nothing but all smiles and love today! My Christmas was GREAT...NO COMPLAINTS! I just wish the dude I'm currently talking to and SO interested in was there. Hopefully, we will be wrapped up together next year. Who knows? But BJH is really great! I think I might take 20 shots today just to celebrate! I'm gonna have to forget that I don't drink though. LOL HAHA! I also got my ears pierced y'all!

WHAT DO YOU LOVE MOST ABOUT LIFE?

2009-12-14T02:59:00.003-05:00

That is the question, that popped in my head a few weeks ago when I was taking my daily shower. Lately, I am proud to say that I have been feeling great. Accepting and Appreciating what the Lord and my Angels have done for me throughout my entire life and the future. He does really show up and out ON TIME! And he always have my back! Throughout, this entire semester I felt he was there guiding me and holding even though I didn't always keep my end of the bargain. So I am always thankful for that! I have not been complaining...things could ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS be alot worse. Problems are much bigger than me and I will be damned if I stress and worry myself over something that the Lord can and will fix!

Although, I haven't always been this way the entire year. After my ugly break-up with JQ. I told myself that I must re-evaluate my outlook on life and not stress on the un necessary. See with me and alot of others being young, black, and gay we often times go looking for love. You know, always wanting to have a boo and be boo'd up. Well I got my taste and it was not pretty. I called him my boo but he didn't make me happy. The health of our "relationship" made me depressed and boy did I look it! Once that break-up was over and I finally moved on! Changes had to be implemented. I started reading my bible more frequently, adapted a new healthy diet (no beef, pig, soda, or too much sweets) and worked the Law of Attraction.

See, I am 19 years old (soon to be 20 VERY soon) I should not be looking to be boo'd up. I mean if it happens it happens. So I asked for the Lord to focus my mind on what I needed it to be focused on and that was school and to lay the blueprint for what I wanted to obtain in life. When that happened I felt so much better, much more alive, much more alert, much more aware, much more mature. I have learned SO much and have evolved as a person.

Had I not gone through that and found my way back to my main power source, I would still be pressed about not having a boo. But not today! Things happen in there due season! So with that I came to the conclusion that the thing I love most about life is LEARNING itself! If you don't learn, you don't grow, and TJ Harris wants to most definitely continue to GROW and prosper suga!

With that said, what do my blogger family love most about life?

LESSONS LEARNED: SCHOOL WORK

2009-12-14T02:40:00.005-05:00

Yes, I know I do not post much like I used to but this semester in college was not my best! It started on bad! Really bad! Grades slipped and they slipped fast! My GPA has tremendously dropped from my very nice 3.5! :( Something was off...maybe my brain or I just wasn't feeling it or the chronic procrastination. Everyone has a bad semester and this one will be my 1st and my last!

There are some things that I can be proud about! I changed my major to, Psychology, FINALLY! It was really my 1st choice but going in I found out that almost, if not all, of the Information Technology fields pay is great! I completed about 19 hours of IT related courses. I was good at it, but there was no way on Earth that I could see myself working in the field and enjoy it to some level! I have always wanted to impact the lives of other and as a Psychology major that is exactly what I plan to do especially with teens and adolescents. I may graduate a semester late but all of that is fine as long as I get to the finish line! And, I also got an A in my second English course (1102 to be exact). And that made me smile when one of my friends told me that one of her advisors, stated that A's in English courses looks great on your resume.

My plans for the Spring Semester is to bust it wide open with ALL A's, resulting, in my 4.0 GPA that I will achieve! After all, I will not and can not lose HOPE...the help funds my college tuition. I am so excited, anxious, and ready to begin my work in the Spring especially my Psychology and Sociology course.

This 1st semester in school was very different in alot of ways. My studying habits changed...which helped me learn what and not to do when it does come to studying. I become more social, meet more friends, and just learned alot more. As Rihanna, new tatoo states, "Always A Lesson. Never A Failure". Even though I let myself down there was a lesson to be learned, which was give your best and push yourself even harder, even if you are not "feeling it".

Please forgive me for the lack of updates! I gots to keep up with my boo a heck of alot better. :)

MYA...2ND PLACE?!!!

2009-11-25T00:41:00.003-05:00

So I am so saddened right now that my all time favorite artist, MYA, came in 2nd place on Dancing With The Stars after chessy clumsy Donny Osmond. On shows like this the TRUE winner NEVER wins! Let's see: Lalia Ali, Lil Kim, Mel B, and now Mya all did NOT win the trophy that clearly belonged to them! Mya was gracefully, spicy, consistent in every dance! Yes, some may argue that Dmitri failed her in the difficulty of the dances but she ruled that dance floor none the less. It became even more clear that Mya was a trending topic on twitter, reaching to #3. So hey she was the winner in ALOT of people's eyes. I'm glad she graced the show though. It opened her up to more fans that I'm sure she gained and people are talking about her again! In recent interviews Mya has stated that new music will soon by on it's way and that the pop Mya that we know and love will be back and baby I am ready! TEAM MYA forever and always.

Thoughts?

Mini Love Life Update

2009-10-16T00:27:00.003-04:00

Doesn't it suck when you are dating a person for a couple of weeks and everything seems fine...nothing has went wrong and then the person just wants to be "friends". Well that just happened to me. Made plans and everything and one track to be "More than just Friends"....things were getting serious. So yeah I was quite disappointed and sad. He was a good guy and we actually had a connection. This never happened to me before in my life. I mean it was all sudden and seem like it came out of no where. I do appreciate that he put the brakes on us before things got too deep. Oh well on to the next one, like Chrisette Michele, right? So far no new "potentials" right now even though I would really love to go on a date and get to know someone.

NEW MYA MUSIC!

2009-10-15T12:48:00.002-04:00

New artist Lil Eddie reached out to Mya to collaborate on this great pop ballad. "Searchin For Love" definitely packs a punch with the emotions that is filled throughout the song. Mya is pushing her vocals and they just compliment each other so well! Too bad this song will not be released in the U.S. I hope that changes because I think it would do great on the charts! But the fans in Japan will definitely get to eat it up.

And Mya was on top again for week 4 of DWTS. She tied with Melissa Joan Hart! The lambada was a hot performance and like Len I was expecting more RAUNCH! LOL!

UM...OKAY? I GUESS!

2009-10-06T14:11:00.004-04:00

I was having lunch with some of my friends on campus, like usually. Regular chit-chat, gossip, update on everyone's life at the moment and what not. This particular day we were talking about "cheaters". And Sasha was like, "everyone is a loser". Basically saying that everyone cheats so no one comes out as a winner. Her boyfriend cheated on her but at the same time she had her guys on the side too.

That's not what made me go, "HUH?" though.

Lala was describing her hot session with her dick-on-the side, but how she justified it, left me with a big question mark on my face. She was talking about how she used a condom when she was having sex with her side piece.

She said, " I do not really consider it sex, because I used protection. To me, it's not really sex, because it does not feel the same. So, I don't consider that cheating on Rex because I used a condom. It takes the feeling out for me, so I don't consider that cheating. Should I feel bad y'all?"

Me, "Hmm, yeah it's still sex. I don't really see what your saying. You probably don't feel bad because you don't love him."

Sasha, "Yeah, I can agree with what your saying. It's the same way for me child."

Lala, "I do love him"

Me...I chuckled and continue sipping my cranberry apple juice. But I was scratching my head on the inside.

Do y'all agree with Lala, like, Sasha? I was quite shocked to her this coming from women. Anyway, I wanna know what y'all think.

MYA SIZZLES WITH THE RUMBA

2009-10-06T14:06:00.003-04:00

Week 4! And MYA was like bacon frying in the skillet! She got the first 10 of the season! And it was two....10s at that! Lynn is still a tough cookie but hey! Team DMYA on deck!

BEAUTY AND THE STREETS, VOL. 1

2009-09-29T18:35:00.003-04:00

Mya 1st mixtape dropped today guys! Make sure you can guys pick up your copy or legally download yours RIGHT NOW! To be honest, this is the 1st legal download that I have bought, Itunes 9.99. And I am loving this mixtape of course! She's doing lots of different sounds and things with her voice. It is not all hood hip-hop which I thought initially. She does have her Hip-Pop songs and R&B songs. You here the growth in her voice and I just love her hustle right now. She says it all in "I'm Back"! My favorites so far are : "Ponytail", "I'm Back", "Manaholic", "Go Hard or Go Home", Work It Out", "Blackout", and "Now or Lata". I can not wait for the main album that is coming in 2010 and I'm not sure when Volume 2 is dropping....but Mya says soon! ^_^

Preview the Entire Mixtape (Imeem) :

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Beauty and the Streets: Mixtape, Vol. 1

THE JIVE, DMYA

2009-09-29T17:55:00.002-04:00

DMYA performed the Jive, yesterday, and got the great score of 27. YAY! I loved this performance. Doesn't she remind you of Velma Kelly from Chicago? Too bad she didn't get her chance to play her since she broke her foot a couple of weeks into rehearsal for the Broadway play. Anyway, they rocked and Dmitri is SO FINE! Aaron Carter is claiming that he is going to win it this season! I hope MYA crushes his dream! LOL Enjoy y'all.

MYA WALTZ ON DWTS

2009-09-23T18:59:00.002-04:00

Y'all know I was going to post this, RIGHT! Mya was a beautiful elegant graceful princess last night on Dancing With The Stars. She performed the vietnamese waltz with her oh so sexy dance partner, Dimitri. The judges loved her! Except Mr. Len Goodman, who we will refer to as, Ebenezer Scroog, from now on. He totally cheated my girl last night. Oh can you give her a 5, the same score as stiff Kathy Ireland. Wow, I guess he missed his nap time. Overall, Mya's score was a 31 (21 for the waltz and 10 for her Cha-Cha). And she murdered her Cha-Cha even though she do need to work on her kicks. She was placed at #2 for the night after Joanna Krupa. She surprisingly has some good competition...I hope MYA wins it though! And, YES! I voted for her until I could not no more. ^_^ Get into her performances below.

Vietnamese Waltz:

Mya's sprint Cha-Cha:

PRAISE!

2009-09-21T00:52:00.001-04:00

"I vow to praise You
Through the good and the bad.
I'll praise You,
Whether happy or sad.
I'll praise You
(this is my testimony)
In all that I go through,
(somebody said why)
Because praise is what I do,
Cause I owe it all to You."

HELLO SUNDAY!

2009-09-20T15:36:00.003-04:00

Great Sunday y'all! I just feel good today and this morning I was a little down! I think my angels definitely have my back! Because I feel like this "special energy". Its calm but strong and happy...that's how I would describe it. And I think it's more than me having a great brunch. LOL ^_^ Imma leave y'all with this video. Enjoy!

SHINE!

2009-09-18T00:27:00.003-04:00

All I want to do is SHINE! AND BE SUCCESSFUL!...Just ran across this video. Jervae has a very pretty voice..check her out y'all.

Already Gone?

2009-09-16T22:54:00.003-04:00

Am I? Or is he?......Just want "US" to be happy...

READY FOR LOVE - DURAND BERNARR

2009-09-11T20:24:00.002-04:00

Ok! This cover of India Arie's "Ready For Love" is deliciously AMAZING! I wish it was HIS song! Get into it y'all...I promise you will definitely enjoy it!

HOW I FEEL - BRANDY

2009-09-07T22:30:00.005-04:00

* No post is needed for this amazing song by Brandy. It says EXACTLY what I want to say to my someone special! This gurl is amazing she has a song for every feeling... not so? so? ^_^ Enjoy!

"How I Feel"

[Verse 1]
I Thought About Callin You (Callin You)
But I Changed My Mind
The Moment I Thought About What You Do To Me, Everytime
I'm Trying To Come Home And See Ya
You actin' like you can't make no time for me
So I'm Puttin Down This Receiver
Cause If You Don't Know By Now Just How Much I Need Ya

[Chorus]
Then You Never Know How I Feel
This Is Only Gonna Change If You Let It
And It's Real
So If You Don't Do What I Ask Of You
Oh Woah Oh
Boy I'm Still Missing You So Bad It's Pathetic
I'm For Real
See I Need More Than Your Guarantees
Boy You're Losing Me

[Verse 2]
You Used To Be So Attentive
Call Me At Least Twice A Day
But Now I Have No Support, No Incentive
To Keep Me Loving You This Way
I Sit Alone, Wait In Patience
For You Return To Me, And I Can't Believe Just As Long As You Take It
If You Don't Know By Now What Mistake You're Making

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
I Hate It When You Treat Me Like A Burden And It Hurts When I Feel
Like You Don't Need Me
I Wanna Believe That You Love Me
But It's So Hard To Relax When You Won't Call Me Back
Blowing Me Off Like It's A Wrap And Just Say That
Cause I'm Tired Of Complaining
If You Ain't Ever Gonna Change It
Then You Can't Change The Way I Feel
No (No)

[Chorus x2]

Yeah

TJ IS BACK!

2009-09-07T13:43:00.005-04:00

Yay y'all! I'm back! Sorry for the long stay away! But I'm just a guy who blogs not a blogger. I did actually think about deleting it though...but hey I get good advice from y'all so it stays! Hmm has there been lots of changes?...not really. I do have updates though!

I quit my "skin diet"! Ya know I wasn't eating any fried, greasy, or junk food since the end of June. After small progress in the change of my skin I was hopefully then it stopped! So I said "all to hell with it"! I'm still eating healthy but me actually thinking about the diet 24/7 has stopped. I think I'm going to try some Mary Kay products...I've tried everything else since middle school why not give them a shot.
I have a NEW nephew! Yes, nephew number 3 was born on September 2nd! And he is so HANDSOME & BEAUTIFUL! I hear he's stubborn though...he's a feisty one! LOL
2nd year of college has started guys! I have made some changes...I'll save it for another post though!

That's about it for now! I hope to share many vents, stories, questions, laughs, smiles with y'all! Did y'all miss me? Be honest now lol YES! TJ & MYA is BACK! ^_^ Oh Yea...like my collage?

YEA MYA'S BACK!

2009-09-07T12:44:00.004-04:00

YES! My favorite girl is BACK! Mya will be a contestant on season 9 of Dancing with The Stars! She will be dancing alongside her "oh-so-cute" partner Dmitry Chaplin. The show premiers SEPTEMBER 21st on ABC!

I hope this gives Mya the mainstream push that my girl has been looking for! I hope she comes back with a vengeance and murder that stage and the billboard! Let's not MISTAKE or confuse
Mya with being a "Cassie". Mya packs alot of punch with her talents that the world has yet to see! I'm so excited y'all! ^_^

MYA will also be releasing her 1st mixtape on September 29th on her own label Planet 9. "Beauty and The Streets Vol.1" will service the streets with her "hood-female hustler" concept on this mixtape as well as give the ladies in Magic City something to shake to. Me personally I do not like this new hood sound! Being a solid Mya fan I know she is doing this to show a different side to her. "Show Me Something" featuring Bun B is the 1st single from the mixtape. "Beauty and The Streets Vol 2" will soon follow as well as the main album that we have been waiting for. And guess what the main album will be the "R&B/Pop" Mya that we have been missing! ^_^

Never chase behind someone you

2009-07-23T00:15:00.001-04:00

Never chase behind someone you want and really like when they cant show you how much they want you!
*IMA*K.I.S.S!

I think I may need

2009-07-17T16:12:00.001-04:00

I think I may need anger management classes! :(
*IMA*K.I.S.S!

20 MINUTES AFTER!

2009-06-22T00:21:00.002-04:00

It is now 12:20 am and Fathers Day has gone and passed. My grandfathers died in April. He was my moms father. And it was so weird that I heard no one speak about him yesterday not even me. In all honesty I did not even think about that. Im sure my mom did since she loved her father very much. A few minutes ago my little sister comes to my room and tells me that mom is crying. Im thinking not this again. I walk in the kitchen and asks her what is wrong. She screams, "Im not gone see my daddy no more." And wow! There it was! I just gave her hugs and tell her that we all are going to see each other again! And she says your right and wipes her eyes and pulls her self back together. Kids must be there for their parents as they have been for them! R.I.P Grandfather Cosby!

Much Love

YUCK: MY BLACK SKIN PART 2

2009-06-21T04:55:00.007-04:00

Yesterday after I got out the shower I snapped a few pictures of me with my towel on! And I also took some face pics as well. I was anxious to see how they would turn out given how my skin is now! I oh my sweet sweet I was damn near mortified. I maybe exaggerating right now or over reacting but those pictures moved my spirit in a bad way! I did not like what I saw PERIOD! I really want to crawl under a rock and not ever come out again until my skin is glowing like it once was! Ya know I don't even want to go out or even to family events! And you know it's either a BBQ or fish fry every weekend in the South baby! I didn't even go to one of my good acquaintances Hawaiian themed bash today because of my skin! Lots of peeps from my high school were going to be there and I'll be damned if they talked about me as if I was stressing because of my skin. Geesh I'm just feeling like:

My Black Skin...has me looking yucky!
My Black Skin...has me scarred of myself!
My Black Skin...has me HOPELESS!
My Black Skin...disappointed me so much!
My Black Skin...has my looking DULL!
My Black Skin...has me looking stressed!
My Black Skin...has me looking like the grim reaper LMAO! Of course not but hey Capricorns have a pessimistic sense of humor that most don't get!

Of course I am not the most photogenic person but my photos never disappointed me the way those pics did! Oh and when one of my best friends so me for the first time since the summer break guess what she said! "Boo, what's happening to your skin? Or you breaking out? You looked stressed" Wow if at any time I was willing to drive a knife to some one's heart now would most definitely be the time! Ugh! I almost cursed my best friend out! Me looking stressed when I was feeling great that day! Ooops but my skin was broke and couldn't emote that and still is broke! It needs fixing! Also I must say that I have changed my eating habits. I am indeed drinking more water! I unknowingly did that while away at college and still do. It's been 2 days and I have stopped eating all fried and greasy foods and see what effect does it have on my skin.

***I love myself guys please get my sense of humor! I LOVE our black skin and hair! It's so UNIQUE...DUH!

KISSES ^_^

BOOTY: I WANT ONE PLEASE & NOW!

2009-06-21T04:46:00.005-04:00

I would love to have a nice round plump and perky bodacious booty! Standing at 5'6 and weighing 125 with a 29 inch waist I have a small booty. I like to call it my grape! ^_^ Is it too much to ask for my Britney Spears booty hehe! Geesh! What do I have to do....like 1,000 squats day and night?
Check this video out. This latino dude will either have your mouth watering or you really jealous! I found this over at Dark After Dark!

http://chocolatesundown.blogspot.com/2009/06/turn-around.html

Go and see and then come back and tell me what popped in your head! A nice booty come on Santa Claus...PLEASE!!!!!

YUCK: MY BLACK SKIN

2009-06-21T03:49:00.006-04:00

As you all know I have been having serious skin issues. From acne to razor bumps to dark spots and uneven skin! I'm sure you guys don't know this but I have a bad history of acne thanks to my father's side of the family! So I have had acne since I can pretty much remember. Looking like a real live black pickle is not pretty during my puberty days! I remember in 7th grade this dude was sitting in our class because he was put out of his for bad behavior. This comment he made stuck in my head ever since..."Damn, why all y'all boys got bumps on y'all faces? That shit is ugly!" Yep that's exactly what he said and yeah it was hilarious! But I just rolled my eyes and got back to painting, we were in art class after all!

Anyway I dealt with it the best I could. Using tons of products like Ms. Noxzema, Clean & Clear, those damn burning like hell Oxy pads, and lets not forget about Velocity by Avon (sucked like dog sh*t!). Needless to say none of those mothasuckas worked! Hmm I did like the refreshing feeling Noxzema gave me though! It wasn't until 8th grade summer that I found my answer which was Proactive. I begged my big sister to buy it for me. Out of the 4 kids my parents have me and her got the worse skin! So of course she understood because she went through it first! Shoot, the only reason she said yes was because she could return the empty bottles and not be charged! I think the only celebrity endorsing them at the time was Vanessa Williams (love her!).
So after a week of waiting the box arrived. And this bitch didn't even tell me! It was late one night and I walked in her room and the box was sitting on her laundry basket. I jumped with glee inside! Couldn't wait to get my hands on those magical products that will take my face from zero to ten! So I used it and no lie after the very first night I noticed a difference! There was some changed and I was amazed! Not as amazed when I woke up the next morning and found a new red sore pimple on my face! But I have come to learn over time that using new products on your face will result in new pimples and maybe some itchiness until your face gets adjusted to the product.

After about three weeks of using it my face cleared up! Yes unbelievable right! Proactive had my skin looking really good! I was actually receiving compliments! Well that ended after a few months since my sister only ordered that 1st shipment for me and my mom wasn't paying for the future one's. Oh well I got sad and went back to the other lame unsuccessful products! I must say this though without using Proactive I do believe my acne and skin would have been way more F'd up had I not used it!

Who would have thought that when I turned 15 that I would have to shave in between hair cuts! Play the strings Rich and welcome my razor bumps! After that shave I tried waxing! Let me tell you NEVER wax your effin face! Then I tried some Nair hair removal cream that was not designed for the face but for legs! I said what the hell and slapped it on anyway and I was walking around the school with flesh showing on my face! Yep I got a bad chemical burn! Hardest couple of weeks of my life! Having to walk around like there was nothing one my face and wanting to b*tch slap anyone you acknowledged it! Come to think about it I think I did curse out someone for asking me about it or tore them to shreds about their dirty hand-me-down clothes! I'm not quite sure! At 17 I found Bump Patrol thanks to Google! And it worked for the most part! 90% is gone but there are still a few small ones there and bumps in the wrong lightening!
Acne and razor bumps definitely left discoloration and uneven skin on my cheeks! Now my skin is having uneven-ness almost everywhere.

After the snow day or snow week in Atlanta around late February/early March (I think) and a little after that it got hot....my skin went crazy! One day I woke up and BOOM BOOM POW there were like 3-5 more dark big patches on my face. Under my eyes, on the sides of my nose, and around my mouth! I scared my damn self in the mirror that day and became very sad after looking! I called my mom after my classes and sobbed in her ear. That's when I decided to try Ambi! And guys in all honesty after a little over 3-4 month of using Ambi I see small improvement. To be the leading skin care company for Blacks left my high disappointed and sad and HOPELESS AS A BLACK MAN WITH SKIN CARE PROBLEMS! I'm going to say it again a BLACK MAN WITH SKIN CARE PROBLEMS! DAMN YOU AMERICA DO YOU THINK WE NOT NEED HELP ON OUR SKIN TOO! It's always White pussy, Black pussy, Asian and whatever else that gets all the products for their skin! Lets not leave out the white men that have way more products available and easy to find for them! What is an effin black man to do?! Do we get know love in this department?!

HI HI HI PEOPLE! + COLLEGE UPDATE

2009-06-21T03:28:00.004-04:00

Guys I know it has been a minute since my last blog! Sorry. Did you guys miss me...yeah probably not! Hehe ^_^ Anyway you all might as well get ready for another random bi-polar post! Yep Yep if you read my blog you are used to it! Sorry that my writing isn't as structured like everyone else's I'm giving you TJ damn it! LOL So this post might serve a purpose or not....I really do care I just want you to enjoy it....DUH!

Confessions of A Shopaholic - I just got done watching 72 minutes of it online. And it was definitely hilarious and kinda romantic at the same time. Whoever plays the leading role as Becky was great!

Hmm...guys I literally just forgot what I was about to type next! Even though it's 3:35 am here in GA on an early Sunday I promise you guys that I'm not high or drunk ok! I just had a brain fart that's all!

OH! Guess what yall! My Academic Grant for the fall 09/10 semester has been taken away from me! Why? Because I am not a sophomore but a 2nd year freshman because I only earned 27 hours of the 30 to be a sophomore! That really broke my heart. I mean a 3.53 GPA isn't enough! Lawd does the government really think taking several challenging courses during one semester as oppose to dropping 2 just to keep my GPA up! DANG! Can't win for losing! Granted if I knew that I had to be a sophomore to be elgible for my 2nd year Academic Grant then I probably would have stuck it off and my GPA more than like would have dropped and it probably would have been lower than a 3.0. I didn't know that at all! I knew that I had to have 30 hours to be considered a sophomore but I didn't know that it would affect my financial aid. So here I am praying ferevently for an answer to this problem and others as well! Oh trust me there are others! My plan now is to take out 2 loans this upcoming school year. The subsidized loan and the unsubsidized loan just to make up what I loss and to pay for the outstanding fees! If your wondering how much I loss it was $1,300! Yep! Definitely needed that! I wouldn't mind volunteering to pay off some of this debt! By the way when is that bill going to get passed Obama! Affording college is hard man! :(

Well looks like this post served a purpose after all! Yay me!

Much Love Y'all.....LEAVE COMMENTS DAMN IT!

WERQ: TIPS PLEASE

2009-06-01T23:25:00.004-04:00

So I'm just getting out the shower. Blasting Black Eye Peas 2nd single "I Gotta Feeling"...this song makes me feel good. Anyway, before that I worked out for about 40-45 minutes. I did inclined push-ups (30-35 of those) mostly because I want a chest! I also did Hip-Hop Abs! Yep you heard right and I'm not ashamed. I was actually sweating and could feel the burn. Why are my thighs sore? My lawd I was not expecting that. Y'all know I'm out for the summer so I might as well do something productive right even if it's hot! Remember there is no central AC at my parents house now! I'm used to sleeping naked anyway but it is very agitating none-the-less. I REALLY WANT a very lean body that is toned and defined! A "SURFER'S BODY"!!!
Like this one:

Damn, I was going to post a pic of my body but they are all on cell phone which is on life support now. Yeah it's completely dead and will not charge! I haven't took it to the doctor yet (VERIZON). So yeah no texts or calls for about a week now! Of course I'm sad about that...all the more reason to work-out right.

DO YOU GUYS HAVE ANY TIPS FOR ME?! I want to achieve that body! Remember this is a home workout because I am indeed broke and the job search is "dead" right now.

Now the book "From My Soul To Yours" and DanActive yogurt is calling me before I go to bed!

KISSES & STARRY NIGHTS!

IGNORANT GIBBERISH HAS ME PISSED!

2009-05-25T21:35:00.003-04:00

My mom and sister just pissed me the fuck out! I'm so mad! So 10 minutes ago the family was flipping through the channels to find something good to watch. For some reason it stopped on MTV or VH1 and the commerical for the MTV Movie Award was being advertisied. It was the nominees for Best Kiss and two male actors are nominated for best kiss, of course they were kissing each other. And my momma said "two men kissing?" in disgust. Now she knows I'm gay so I'm pretty sure she knew that would be offense. I honestly didn't expect her to say that! I then replied, "What's wrong with that?". And my sister said, "It might confuse the kids and that it's not normal".

Me - "No it will not and it IS NORMAL"
Sis - "Yea it's normal if u know"
Me - "It doesn't matter and I'm not listening to you anymore. That's so stupid"
Mom - "I think you should try the OTHER side. I think your scared of getting close to a woman"
Me - "What?!"
Sis - "Yeah I agree"
Me - "That makes no sense. And that is so stupid. You both are stupid"
Mom - "You don't know. Know you want me to be real I'm being real"
Sis - "Now I agree with momma"
Me - "That's is so fucking stupid. Never ever say that dumb shit to me again! Both of you should be shot in the head for saying something like that!"

She laughed and I left the room pissed! Not speaking to anyone of them! Damn I wish I would have went to summer school! Oh and I'm never telling either of them anything personal about me ever again! The two people who I thought would understand does NOT! So I'm done!

Are there African-American Angels?

2009-05-17T17:21:00.005-04:00

I always wondered about this when I was little and now until earlier this morning when I read this! Not only did this answer my question but comforted me as well. Enjoy ^_^ Happy Sunday people even though it's rainy weather in GA!

Are there any black angels? Has anyone ever seen a black angel?
- Clarence

The Bible gives a clear answer: no. But keep in mind, Clarence, that angels are not Asian, Caucasian, Hispanic, African or of any race. Humans have racial and ethnic characteristics that are passed down from parents to children, but angels are not humans; they are spirit beings. They do not have children and do not pass down any characteristics from one generation to another. Every angel has been created directly by God. Theologians use these terms to distinguish them. Angels are a company; humans are a race.

Although angels are spirits in their natural state and are invisible to our eyes, they do temporarily assume a human form when God sends them on a mission. Sometimes, they appear as a brilliant light or as other supernatural forms, but most often they appear as a human being. For example, the three angels that appeared to Abraham looked like three men, just like anyone else in the neighborhood (Genesis 18). To read more, see my column: What Do Angels Look Like?

When angels do minister to people, apparently they can choose what to look like. That choice seems to be guided by how they can be most effective in performing their ministry. This means that the angel’s form is similar to that of the person they are sent to help. Here is one of the many stories that people have shared with me how an angel appeared as a “black” angel.
Keisha is certain that she was saved by a black angel who appeared from nowhere and, just as suddenly, disappeared. At the time it happened, she was an attractive 14-year-old African-American girl, walking home the few blocks from her piano teacher’s place when she became aware that a rough-looking man was following her. She quickened her pace, only to hear the foot falls behind her advance even more rapidly. She remembered the reports that a man—was it this man?--had attacked girls in the neighborhood.

Fear crept over her; she felt her breathing become heavy. Realizing the street was deserted, Keisha feared the worst. She cried out for God’s help in a silent prayer. Instantly, from nowhere, a black man on a bicycle rode close to the curb next to the sidewalk where Keisha walking. The bicyclist did not say a word, but he expertly slowed his speed to match Keisha’s gait, smiled, and rode beside her until she came to her house. He paused at the curb while Keisha took out her keys and unlocked her door.

Before she joined her family in the front room, she looked at the man who had been following her, and saw he had turned and hurried away. But her “rescuer,” the man on the bicycle, had disappeared. Keisha could see both ways on the street. There was nowhere he could have gone; he had simply disappeared. Keisha is certain God sent his angel on a bicycle in her time of need in the guise of a black man. Why did he take the form of a black man? Keisha answers simply, “It was to make me feel safe when I was scared stiff.”

Beliefnet

LMAO!!!! SNATCH & DASH

2009-05-15T19:32:00.001-04:00

WATCH THE VIDEO! I wonder what was going through Katherine McPhee's head when that snatch & dash happened. LMAO HAHAHA!!!

CHRISETTE MICHELE ROCKS!!!

2009-05-13T21:58:00.005-04:00

GO OUT AND BUY YOUR COPY OF HER SOPHOMORE ALBUM "EPIPHANY". It was a great gem! Ne-Yo executive produced the great album dealing with love and relationships! The 1st single and title track, "Epiphany", is on heavy rotation on my ITunes! The remix featuring Rick Ross & Juelz Santana brings more flavor to the already hot track. One of my favorite tracks from the album is "Notebook". I fucking love that song. In all serious-ness I had that song on repeat for an hour! It's about being heavily infatuated and interested in someone that they stay on your mind all the time! Every song is deliciously GOOD! If you don't have her 1st album got and buy that one too! "I Am" was nothing but awesome writing and Chrisette wrote every song on that album as opposed to only 3 on "Epiphany". Check her out singing "All I Ever Think About" live at MTV's SoulStage. She kills it!!! One of my favorite gurls has the #1 album in the country selling 83,000 copies the 1st week. The biggest debut for her yet! "I Am" debuted with 27,000 copies sold! ^_^ GET INTO HER!!!

Chrisette Michele |MTV Music

More Live Performances
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IT'S YOURS DADDY!....OH WAIT! WE ARE NOT ANYMORE!

2009-05-12T21:53:00.004-04:00

Ok PLEASE tell me what is up with dudes trying to bed you after the break-up. JQ told me that he never wanted to talk to me ever again! While I was on the phone crying and pleading my case. So why after three weeks or you messaging me. When I have moved on and made great progress and feeling much SUNSHINE! Your phone numbers are DELETED....all pictures are GONE and respect for you is LOW to none existent.

I was highly pissed when we messaged me twice in within a week inquiring about "How have I been?". Especially since we left on bad terms and bad words. That pretentious prick think he can do this! Is he really trying to play with my head? Funny funny funny since he is so predictable! And I mean scary predictable! Not a trait I want in my husband. Being a little spontaneous is sexy to me. Anyway, he continued to say that he wish he saw me before I left. I asked him why and why did he even message me. He exact words, "Damn I can't speak to you and just to stop by". Oh really! He made a joke about "fucking my ass out". I told him that he definitely can not have mines. "I'm sure you have others for that" " Your are Mr. Jones who can get any piece of ass right?" That was a shocker for him! And then he said that he could have got me if he wanted to. Is he serious?! I could have gave him a tongue lashing and hurt his feelings. He could have had in the 1st few months after that most things were sour.

His disrespectful and disgusting ass wants to imply that maybe I have become a hoe after our break-up. Yeah that makes much sense! What the hell ever...I am unbreakable and when I think of the statistics that's enough to scare my ass! I may have the strong urges and that's what they stay! Unlike I get married and freak like rabbits! LMAO!!!!!

I know many gays give up the ass and dick after a break-up but WHY?! Dudes and females are so nasty to still have sex with the person when the person is claiming someone else! Nasty trollops! I think it's stupid and weak as hell! As B.Scott says..."Your an Ex for a REASON"!

RELATIONSHIPS! & EWW TEXTERS ONLY!

2009-05-12T08:36:00.002-04:00

Well...I'm just gonna get it to straight like, IvannaBitch, me and JQ tried getting back together. A big mistake! I'll talk about that later right now I don't want to revisit it...I'm feeling to chill and laid back right now hehe.

So as the spring time hit a couple of weeks ago I have become so unbelievably HORNY! Most definitely craving a thick yet lean turkey [sausage] with some sweet chocolate [cakes] of course. (I'm so nasty!)

Actually...In March I didn't realize that it will be a year since I have actually had sex. And that was when I lost my virginity on May 23rd or isn't 22nd. Either way it was the first and only time I have had sex in my life. Me and JQ didn't get a chance to have sex or it just didn't happen or meant to be. Hmmmm who knows? Anywho I have definitely been craving a hot sweaty beat down. Oh well guess my hand will have to do. ^_^

Next topic...DL men are hilarious to me. This one dude...Vant...wants to find a permanent side piece. He is married with two or three kids. Yeah right good luck with that one sweety.

Oh yeah! Stills tried to hook me up with this guy from her Communications class. She saw him on BGC (LMAO haha) and wanted to hook him up with me. She said he was cute and that was a total lie when I saw him Thursday while he was helping her move out. Anyway he is a coward for the simple fact the he never called me. The only thing he did was text!!!! He told her that he really liked me and I definitely could not tell. What grown fucking man only text! And if you do you should be hung! One of the reasons why I have been despising texting lately especially when you are in a relationship or potential ones. I called him 3 times after that he was a dead weak one to me. No way in hell will I continue to waste my time with a coward. YOU ARE GROWN...CONVERSE WITH ME DAMN IT! And do you know Thursday he didn't say anything to me. I was very friendly towards him and tried to start up and convo but it was dead. That shyness, which is what I assumes it is has to go! In the meantime I have officially moved on from that dead end street. ^_^

COLLEGEUPDATE ^_^

2009-05-12T07:57:00.003-04:00

Hello! My 1st year of college was officiall over Thursday May 7th. I was definitely a learning experience! Learned alot about myself and other people as well. I got lazy alot with the school work hehe. My 3.5 GPA may be in trouble. I don't like Information Technology at all, but since I'm already taking the core classes I guess I'm going to get an associates degree. It was not what I expected at all. I just want to fix computers (hardware) not deal with all this software ish....like Programming (HATED IT WITH A PASSION!), Web Mastering (Its AIGHT but tedious), Database Design (pay is awesome but so challenging just like programmin). I want to do something that I would like to do! Not dread the work I'm doing. I like dancing but I'm a realist as well I want a very comfortable life and dancing is very unstable. I have thought about Psychology, Teaching, Business (maybe?)...Where can I get help with this? I do not want to be a college student go to school changing majors like my underwear. :(

Until then I am looking for a job. Do not want to be bored out of my mind this summer and I am feeling the working bug definitely more than I did in high school. I want to make my own funds and be more independent buy next time this year I am hoping that I will have moved into an apartment in metro Atlanta with my good friend Key. :) That's what I'm praying for. More courage and be more independent....no more being cramped at mom's house.

Speaking of that I am leaving with my sister for the summer. Pros - Central AC and much more space. Cons - no cable or internet access. While she is at school during the day I can't obviously stay there with nothing to do!

Finally at home people. The

2009-05-09T07:08:00.001-04:00

Finally at home people. The semester is over. No summer classes or cute boys. Real blogs when I actually sit down Lol Ok.
*OPTIMISTIC*

Hola!

2009-04-16T13:35:00.003-04:00

Hey y'all I just feel like posting really have nothing to say. I am feeling splendid. I guess that's what a fresh hair cut can do to you. Just gives one a boost of CONFIDENCE and SWAG! So I watch the first season of The DL Chronicles. Awesome show! Great writing and the capturing of the characters were....REAL! I love Mark and Donte'! That is my absolute fav! Whoever the actors were they were paired perfectly! I WANT THAT! ^_^

So I am throwing out all of my Neutrogena products and switching to something for people of COLOR! Any suggestions? I thought about swithcing back to Proacvtive but it's not really made for people of color either! Does black soap really works? And where is the skin facial and body care line spefically for BLACK/ETHNIC MEN?!!! HELLO CAN WE PLEASE GET THAT!

My cousin is doing great. Swelling is going down. He is responsive and they're thinking about doing surgery between this Friday and Monday.

Hmmm what else? I'm not really feeling Prince's new protege Bria Valente. She doesn't really inspire me. Well I've only heard "Another Boy" and she just sings the song...blah blah blah!

Do anyone has a date for me or someone in mind? ^_^

I'm lovin the weather. Sunny and windy!!!

Oh, I've been having LOTS of funny ass dreams lately. Like seriously, I been cracking up in my damn sleep!

KISSES & SUNSHINE!

THINGS HAPPEN!

2009-04-14T15:13:00.002-04:00

Hi yall! How was Easter? I hope it was good.

Mines was shocking as more family tragedy ensued. This Friday one of my older cousins house was totally destroyed by the tornado that ripped through southwest GA. Her house was picked up and move to the end of the road! Totally gone! On Easter day two of my younger cousins, who happen to be in middle school, stole my grandmothers car and went for a joyride. Coming back the joy ride brought lots of tears. They were going to fast the car flipped 3 times, hit a poll, ejected T 20 ft away from the car. T suffered way more serious and almost fatal conditions then Ken did. Ken fortunately got to leave the hospital the same day with minor leg and arm problems. T on the other hand....every bone in his face is broke, some back bones are broken, his thyroid bone his broken, and he has punctures in one of his lungs. Sunday hours after the incident happen his lung collapsed and he stopped breathing. Hearing that and my family burst into tears while on the phone with my sister made my breathing stop for a minute. He is recovering now in a hospital in Macon...he will need cosmetic surgery and [it just slipped my mind] but it's something with his lung of course.

Honestly, if my family suffered another close loss it would have been....basically things would have been upside down for awhile. The events that happened in one month just has me thinking that there is a bigger message. Things happen for a reason no matter how unfortunate they are and I consider T, Ken, my family, and me very blessed because it could have been way much worse!

LOVE GOD!
KISSES & NO MORE RAINY WEATHER FOR US GEORGIANS!

MYA: HAPPINESS & SUFFERING

2009-04-06T21:58:00.002-04:00

Mya read something that she wanted to share and I wanted to share it with y'all as well. For the most I totally agree with pretty much the entire note. ^_^ I want to know what you guys think!

All living beings have the same basic wish to be happy and avoid suffering, but very few people understand the real causes of happiness and suffering. We generally believe that external conditions such as food, friends, cars, and money are the real causes of happiness, and as a result we devote nearly all our time and energy to acquiring these. Superficially it seems that these things can make us happy, but if we look more deeply we shall see that they also bring us a lot of suffering and problems.

Happiness and Suffering

Happiness and suffering are opposites, so if something is a real cause of happiness it cannot give rise to suffering. If food, money, and so forth really are causes of happiness, they can never be causes of suffering; yet we know from our own experience that they often do cause suffering. For example, one of our main interests is food, but the food we eat is also the principal cause of most of our ill health and sickness. In the process of producing the things we feel will make us happy we have polluted our environment to such an extent that the very air we breathe and the water we drink now threaten our health and well-being. We love the freedom and independence a car can give us, but the cost in accidents and environmental destruction is enormous. We feel that money is essential for us to enjoy life, but the pursuit of money also causes immense problems and anxiety. Even our family and friends, with whom we enjoy so many happy moments, can also bring us a lot of worry and heartache.

Happiness and suffering are states of mind, and so their main causes cannot be found outside the mind. In recent years our understanding and control of the external world have increased considerably, and as a result we have witnessed remarkable material progress; but there has not been a corresponding increase in human happiness. There is no less suffering in the world today, and there are no fewer problems. Indeed, it could be said that there are now more problems and greater unhappiness than ever before. This shows that the solution to our problems, and to those of society as a whole, does not lie in knowledge or control of the external world.

Why is this? Happiness and suffering are states of mind, and so their main causes cannot be found outside the mind. The real source of happiness is inner peace. If our mind is peaceful, we shall be happy all the time, regardless of external conditions, but if it is disturbed or troubled in any way, we shall never be happy, no matter how good our external conditions may be. External conditions can only make us happy if our mind is peaceful.

Finding Peace Of Mind

By sincerely engaging in spiritual practice we can gain mastery over our mind.
Since time without beginning we have been under the control of our mind, like a puppet on a string. We are like a servant working for our mind; whenever our mind wants to do something we have to do it without any choice. Sometimes our mind is like a crazy elephant, creating so many problems and dangers for ourselves and others. By sincerely engaging in spiritual practice we can reverse this situation, and gain mastery over our mind. Transforming our mind in this way, we will finally enjoy real freedom.

For our spiritual practice to be successful we need the blessings and inspiration of those who have already gained deep inner realizations, but we also need to give ourselves constant encouragement. If we cannot encourage ourselves, how can we expect anyone else to? When we understand clearly that inner peace is the real source of happiness, and how, through spiritual practice, we can experience progressively deeper levels of inner peace, we will develop tremendous enthusiasm to practis

HELLO!

2009-04-06T13:35:00.005-04:00

HAPPY MONDAY PPL! I have feeling calm and just GOOD! I have tons of class work to get done since I missed a week of classes due to my Grandfather's passing.

Since my last post I lost someone who was becoming a very good friend! I wish things would have been different but he has to do what he feels is best for him! And I'm fine with that! No more Oprah & Gayle :)

Hmm do I have something to say in this post? Nah not really just a HELLO!

Ooooh why not post songs that have me feeling deliciously good? Yeah, lets do that....YAY!

Keri Hilson ~ Hey Girls feat. T-Pain & Lil Jon - CRAZY DANCE SONG!
Jessica Mauboy ~ Been Waiting - Love this lil midtempo feel good love song!
Ginuwine ~ Last Chance - Ok I feel that he definitely came back strong! I love this song and everyone, especially alot of my fam, love this song as well. Cute video as well!
Keri Hilson ~ In a Perfect World ALBUM! She did it with this SOLID relationship driven debut! Every song is great! I didn't really like the "Intro" or "Make Love"...but trust everything else is HAWT! IMO ^_^
LeToya Luckett ~ She Ain't Got Shit On Me - Toya worked this song ova with her vocals....this song is very Rih Rih but Toya did her THANG!
Florida ~ Sugar feat. Wynter Gordon - This sexy man can turn out a catchy hit that will definitely be an earbug! Hmmm should I get his album?
Nicole Scherzinger ~ Punchin' - Ok this is a nice little FIESTY Gem. Especially if someone has pissed you off! And make you wanna punch their azz in their SLEEP! LMAO Hahaha
Shawty Lo feat. Mya ~ About My B.I. - I love this song. It's catchy and it sounds similar to T.I.'s & Rih Rih "Live Your Life" imo.
Chrisette Michele ~ Ephipany Remix feat. Rick Ross & Juelz Santana - I LUV Chrisette for making this song! I can dig it! It doesn't get me AMP'd for her album like "If I Had My Way" did....but both songs are totally in different lanes.
LADY GAGA ~ THE FAME ALBUM! Now her ENTIRE ALBUM IS CRAZY COOL BANANAS HAWT!!!!!!!!!!! Her album just takes me THERE! (Wherever that is!) This chick sound, lyrics, voice, style...is definitely a breath of fresh minty cool sweet AIR! Inhale deeply and exhale slowly.....Ahhhhhhhhhhhh lol :)

I"M NOT DEAD! ^_^

2009-03-28T08:42:00.002-04:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! People....Did y'all miss TJ? I kinda missed y'all too. Well alot happened while I was away.

Spring Break ~ One Word....COUNTRY! And I loved it because I missed it. Meet my new freighful nephew and just felt comfortbale back home. Went shopping...took a few photos.
Xivinrah ~ We meet each other! He is GENIUS! He's really great to talk to because he gives awesome non-cliche advice! And most of the time is completely TRUE! Didn't get a chance to go to Lenox and Atlantic Station like we wanted but we had a nice time. Me, Him, and we also meet one of my good friends AB! Her exact words "I like him...him NICE!" Oprah and Gayle could be coming to an end....don't ask me! :(
JQ ~ Well long story short! We tried to get back together! Yes you read correctly! But he claim he had decisions to make and wanted to start over as FRIENDS! I found out about one of his few or many dudes. And according to, TBOY, they talk everyday and see each other from time to time....oh and they share kisses too! Which I knew he was seeing other people but there he lots of lies, deception, unanswered questions, not being straightforward, indicisiveness all of JQ's SIDE! I'm really not big on loving someone that doesn't love me...so I'm done with him for GOOD! Wanted to make him so HAPPY and I THOUGHT he was the one but clearly that's dead and gone!
Grandad ~ I also lost my Grandfather last week! It was expected but I didn't expect it so soon. During Spring Break, we were coming from church and he just had tears down his eyes! He said nothing was physically hurt him so we all determined he was lonely. All his friends and family that did visit him were either dead or too old to stop by anymore. And his wife, my mom's mother of course, is too busy taking care of her mother because of the bullying caused by her siblings! So she barely acts as though, my Grandfather Cosby existed anymore. I was so ready to go shopping that day! That I didn't even talk to my Granddad or even tell him that I loved him. I honestly thought I was going to see him again when I came back home in May. And they say we act alot alike when we're pissed! And that was the last time I saw him. When I heard the news, before entering class, it physically hurt me! My stomach never hurted so bad before. I went back to my dorm and just layed in the bed for awhile! He will be missed!
Now ~ I'm on my way back home to go to the funeral that will be Monday at 1pm. Aside from that today is one of my very best and closest friends bday. Butterfly will finally be turning 19! YAY! So we are supposed to hit the movies and Applebee's tonight to celebrate. I LOVE YOU!!!! Music has been helping my keep my spirits up!

LIFE IS TOO SHORT! SHOW LOVE TO ALL THOSE WHO YOU LOVE! AND JUST BE POSITIVE AND KEEP THE SUNSHINE WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO! THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I'M DOING!

MY 15 LIFE CHANGING ALBUMS! ^_^

2009-03-02T19:58:00.004-05:00

**THIS WAS KINDA TOUGH!

Think of 15 albums, CDs, LPs that had such a profound effect on you they changed your life, dug into your soul. Music that brought you to life when you heard it. Royally affected you, kicked you in the wazzoo, literally socked you in the gut, is what I mean. Then when you finish, tag 15 others, including moi. Make sure you copy and paste this part so they know the drill. Get the idea now? Good. Tag, you're it!

In no particular order...

1. Pink! - Misunderstood
2. Jazmine Sullivan - Fearless
3. Brandy - Human
4. Ne-Yo - Year of The Gentleman
5. Mya - Moodring
6. Brandy - Afrodisiac
7. Mary J Blige - Love & Life
8. Mary J Blige - The Breakthrough
9. Atlantic Star - 20th Century Masters - The Millennium Collection: The Best of Atlantic Starr {Mom used to play this all the time and I LOVED IT!}
10. Earth, Wind and Fire - The Essential Earth, Wind and Fire
11. TLC - CrazySexyCool
12. Chrisette Michele - I AM
13.Ashanti - Chapter II
14. Tamia - More
15. John Legend - Evolver

*And every Mary J album would probably be listed besides No More Drama & Growing Pains.

!!!What are some albums that kicked you in the balls or rocked your va-jay-jay?

FEMS = REAL MEN

2009-02-28T21:50:00.005-05:00

**I want comments, comments, comments! Its about to get interesting?!

Ok, I was having a conversation with JQ about me being a bad luck charm and we started talking about gay clubs. He stated that he don't go to gay clubs but he goes to straight clubs because he is disgusted by dudes who act like women and how he disapproves of that. He made this statement that...their characteristics (hey gurl, Naomi Campbell walk, B's Uh-Oh dance) have repercussions. Those repercussions which are missing out on the real men because they are not attracted to fem dudes. Also, of course most fem dudes are attracted to masculine dudes. JQ believes that they will not have a real man because they aren't masculine themselves. I said, "When did being masculine make you a real man?" He then said, "What is a real man to you?" I was SHOCKED! Hello, just because a dude is masculine doesn't make him a real man. I went on to say, "That a real man to me is a man who has INTEGRITY, KEEPS HIS WORD, walks in HUMILITY" There are way more right...they escaped my head....but please do comment about it y'all.

He said that they are NOT going to find the one they want until they stop acting like women. Characteristics are learned at a very premature age. Single moms = a boy with feminine characteristics 9 time out of 10...Ask Kanye West? Should he just not be himself because he's older and he's just being him and doing what is natural. Yes some kids maybe be extra for the attention but that's besides the point. A real man is going to be with a fem dude, inbetween, masculine and accept and love all of him. JQ says what are the chances of that ever happening. I really don't know but if you want to be with someone you are going to be WITH that someone.

He also said that masculine dudes will just use fem dudes for sex but will not pursue a relationship with them because they aren't masculine. This was his anecdote...He was in the club with one of his boys and they saw a dude shaking his ass and grinding it for filth...His boy told him "Man, I'll fuck him but I wont be in a relationship with him because I want be able to take him home". See why must people care what their families think. Speaking of that, I told him that individuals doesn't need to conform to society's standards just to make the next motherfucker (homophobe heteros) feel more comfortable. He says that he agrees, but I what I fail to realize is that I have to live in this world with them. Yeah but live on your own terms the next motherfucker isn't doing shit for you that even matters.

He asked me what kind of dudes am I attracted to? I was like I'm attracted to masculine dudes. He asked me why? I couldn't answer that question I just do! He sarcastically said, "well there you go!" As if every fem dude is single because masculine men like himself aren't comfortable with them in public. I asked him did he think I was disgusting? I don't consider myself fem but of course I have feminine characteristics silly. I might have a slight switch when I'm feeling good. He said no he don't. I asked if you were together and the relationship was SOLID and sound would he introduce me to his family? He said maybe. I asked him that because I was trying to understand his point of view and I don't agree with it at all.

Honestly, I think dudes who have his point-of-view will end up alone and lonely not the feminine dudes. Who is going to be a fool and live their life taking into consideration what society accepts? Let me tell you who and motherfucking fool. Be yourself! I don't knock people for being who they are. Well maybe one group and that's the DL dudes who continue to live lies with a wife and family.

To me he isn't set free. How can this man who had a relationship with me and called me baby in public have this view? That baffles me. I'm just TJ, a regular dude with some fem characteristics. I asked him was he attracted to masculine dudes? "Nah not really im basically attracted to regular guys" Ummm aren't regular guys EXPECTED and is what most would define as masculine therefore they would be equal to the same. Masculine = Regular or Masculine = Not Regular/Superior/Magical/Gold.....TJ is indeed confused lol Do y'all feel me?

Oh and me being a regular dude with fem characteristics he said that I wouldn't find a masculine dude who would accept all of me? Well shoot me dead! Oh my oh my!!!! Of course I don't believe that and will not ever believe it! I will have a man who is a REAL MAN but just because he is masculine doesn't make him one it will be those other great qualities about him. :)

I personally have tremendous love to everyone who are themselves! So much love for my fem brothers. I got love for all my brothers but not one's who share JQ's view. Very interesting...I'm glad we talked about that too. Overall I wish you guys were a fly on the wall when this conversation was happening. COMMENT PLEASE!

LONELY.DEPRESSED.SAD

2009-02-27T21:41:00.003-05:00

Guys is it me or am I not worthy of what I put out. I am tired of being gay! Yes I know it's crazy to say that but being GAY is SO FUCKING HARD! The misunderstanding of you, feelings of being alone, depressed, no one to relate to you, no one there to cry on their shoulders.

People want to call themselves your friend but where are they in times like this. When you have actually told them what your feeling. And you get the response "you'll be alright". Didn't even bother to ask what's wrong. Of course they are going to put their relationship first and enjoy their boos company each even makes me more depressed because they have some one.

Being single is fun but it is quite hard. All these fuckas want is sex. I thought that what I wanted to experience for awhile...you know a hit it and quit it....but I don't. Can't bring myself to do it and if I do, do it I think my all of these feelings well seep deeper. My female friends can understand only so much! And don't get me started on my best female friends here at college. There is only 2. Stills views are different from mines and it hurts even if she says no offense...I am still going to take offense because I am apart of this community. She say she isn't ignorant when it comes to homosexuality but you hear in your voice and how she articulate her stance. It's starting to make me drift anyway from her. I can't stand her tone when talking of gay men sometimes. It's a tone of disgust and b*tch if your disgusted of me!...... I just CANT!...... One thing is for sure my high school friends, who happen to all be females, GETS ME! And that I am so grateful for my 4 honey dews. Together we are the Unpredictable Fab 5! ^_^ SO glad God blessed me with those beautiful young women!!!

I so desire a gay brother. You know everything I had planned with individuals I called friends were cancelled! One, Rell crew is more important than one of his new associates, I'm not even calling him my friend anymore. And the recording session...well oh boi went to the doctor and our plans of going to the club for his performance is cancelled. He didn't even bother to tell me that he didn't want to be friend. I totally thought different. I wish him lucked anyway.

Actually the person who I least thought to be there for me as a friend was JQ. He listened and talked to me through my emotional tunnel that I am currently feeling right now. He understood where I was coming from. He offered to be my friend. I took it but I know it's going to be limited since he is always busy. Still I was surprised that he would be the person who I would be confiding into especially after our verbal fight.

Dudes are LAME! They want to rush into relationships--->NEXT! or just sex -----> NEXT! And they don't appreciated my honesty and realness. As of now there really is not results at all.

I am optimistic and expect the best in every aspect of my life so far that has been going right in my academics. I'm definitely feeling more confident about making the Dean's List this semester and I am so close to it! LORD PLEASE BLESS ME WITH THIS STRONG DESIRE IN MY HEART!

Hopefully I conveyed what I am feeling right now well. I know you all can relate right? I feel lots better after having to talk to JQ, just had to blog about it of course.

KISSES & SUNSHINE....through EVERYTHING!

HI YALL!

2009-02-20T10:14:00.003-05:00

Just want to give a quick update for you guys......

I am feeling like hella good right now and the majority of my week. I got my hair cut Wed. at 10pm and I LOVE it! Out of all the hair cuts I have had this year this one fits me the best. Its not to low...just right...and y'all know I definitely feeling myself!
Plans for the weekend tonight or Saturday...Well I'm supposed to be hitting up the club with my friend Rell. Which is uncertain...because him and his crew always changes there minds at the last minute. Case in point we were supposed to go last night but he told me one of his home bois changed his mind, I think it was his boyfriend though....didn't ruin my night even though I was anticipating it.
Saturday...I'm sitting in on an independent groups recording session and rehearsal. Why? Because my friend who is apart of the group wants my input. Basically if it doesn't look good I'm supposed to tell him. I can do that lol
Oh I have been reading my bible everyday...I'm back at that. And it feels so great! Also I get my spiritual vitamin every morning through Fuzzy's Mornin Mana texts....I really like them and so do the people I forward them too...to get them go HERE!
JQ - well on his profile it reads "finally found what I want"...at first I was feeling sad...but then I thought I have no reason to. That's so good for him. I'm 19 I have more experience and living life to do and damnit I most definitely look forward to it. No more settling for less in any aspect of my life. I laughed about this too.
Midterms are here!!! BAH YUM BUG! Pray for me y'all. I took my Database Design midterm yesterday and I pray that I at least got a C even though I was aiming for a B. My Japanese professor broken english makes it so effin hard for us. C# Programming is going to be another challenging one...I just pray the God gives me a sound mind and help me think like computer programmers so I can get through this class.
My father called me yesterday. And started out with the same on BS. "Why don't you call your Daddy none?" Is he serious? Whenever we talk he has nothing to say but that age-old question and "Where girlfriend at?" I told him I don't want to hear that everytime we talk so I stopped calling him and only called him when I need money. Dirty right? Well he should get his ish together on the parenting front. But this call went a little different he actually asked me how are my classes and how am I doing? WOW I almost pissed in my clothes. Is this change I see coming? Hopefully it is...
My roommate Zin still thinks I'm straight. LOL so funny....I haven't even thought about telling him though. He's really cool and he tells me alot of his business, which makes me feel guilty that I'm not letting him into my life as he is letting me in. But if he needs anything I there and I know if I need his help that he would help me out....never had that before with another male and it's cool. Question? Can women have sex with a yeast infection? Some gurl he was messing with discharged all over his penis and balls during the act. YUCKY! He told me that it was worse than getting sh*tted on! I almost spit out my cranberry grape juice when he said that! "Ah what?!...please come again boo" went through my head. He cleared it up stating he was doing anal with a gurl who can't take it. WOAH dude! And guess what his nickname that he is for me is....WAIT FOR IT... SUNSHINE! He says that I makes him smile and that made me felt good because I love seeing ppl happy.
Oh I have been back on my music game lately and these songs just make me feel so good when I listen to me and I'm going to share a few:

Letoya Luckett - Not Anymore ....I do that's right honey...we all want somebody who is going to give their best just like you are...not settling for less anymore. I love her swag and country-ness...can't wait for the Lady Love to drop!
John Legend - Everybody Knows ... WOW he did it AGAIN! I love this song! And it is so true! And John is HAWT...have y'all seen his butt and thighs :)
Lady Gaga - Eh EH....This song just makes me feel good and she is just selling SEX (LOVE GAME...youtube IT!) like it aint shit! Very different and refreshing.
Jennifer Hudson - If This Isn't Love ...Great song that I can rock and sing along too...gotta cop her cd.
Britney Spears - Mhhm Papi ...I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS SONG!
Britney Spears - Rock ME IN ...ANOTHER ONE THAT JUST MAKES ME FEEL GOOD!

That's all ppl...I hope this post wasn't to long...just wanted to give y'all an update.
KISSES AND SUNSHINE!!! :) :) :)

WELL ISN'T IT...

2009-02-15T22:35:00.005-05:00

...Great when an EX says something that nails the nail in the coffin and finally give you the pleasure of actually being over them. And I'm so glad that you didn't even text me Happy Valentines Day, even though I wanted him to at the time.Here I thought that we could actually be friends. But he never understood me and he never will. He never got my perspective, where I was coming from, hell he never got ME! And I actually looked up to him (I think it was his WORK ethic than anything else)...that's laughable now. We were unequally yoked...it was going to end eventually. But I am so grateful that you said those words to me. Wow you really think that "I'm just like the rest of the ppl on BGC". He think just because he is police officer and has his materialistic things that he can look down on ppl. The same man who said he thinks being gay is a curse! Honey, I pray it's not a self-love issue. The same man who thinks its OK to sleep with your cousin and mention a 3-some with him! Doomed from the beginning right? The same man who looks down upon ppl because he has 3 jobs. The same man who loves having pride!

I told him, "Nigga fuck what you pride, pride actually breaks a person down and holds them back, learn to walk in humility nigga. Maybe you dont understand that. Since you think being gay is a curse and what not". YES he caused me to use the word NIGGA and I NEVER EVER DO! It just came though y'all. Hell I even told him about his boring personality, I probably shouldn't have done that but he pushed me to that point. I'm glad he grouped me with the rest of the BGC members as to let me know that I didn't leave up to his standards or his almighty views. Just because I post a nude sketch picture of myself on BGC. And guys I honestly did not post it to get the men attention at all. I just wanted too. It's a sketch so it's like I'm being bad but not too bad because it's just a sketch pic. I felt liberated a little after I posted it. I mean if I want to post every fuckin naked pic of myself on this blog site I will do that because I CHOSE too and that's it! No getting quick sex because baby if that was the case, I could go to one of the two dudes who asked me out at the beginning of last semester or the dude who grabbed my ass as I was leaving class three weeks ago! Everyone have there views and perspectives on issues, people may never understand where you are coming from or YOU! And that is so okay!

It's kinda ironic because I deleted every saved "Awww that's sweet/love savedtexts" from my cell and every picture I had of him on my pc and cell 4 hours ago and this just transpired. And I feel so good!